without... you...

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2011-03-04T22:00:00.000+08:00

So, here are almost all the poems. Found where they were hidden and shall post it out. This shall be the post for today, enjoy :). (That is, if you like poems.)
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This is the first poem posted in my blog=D April 18 2008

Love is so complicated; it brings people into confusion,
Full of trust and doubts, it may all be just an illusion...
Without you, my life would be in a mess,
Losing your love and care, I fall, in depress...
Why leave me when u said you’ll never leave me aside
What must I do to show my love to you?
I love you so dearly that to you I will mostly abide.
Please, my love is true...

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My 2nd poem posted=D it's all about my feelings on that day itself April 27 2008

On that very day when u chose to leave, I burst into tears filled with grieve
Bewildered with your choice, echoing through my mind was your voice...
There was once when u said those words to me,
I started to doubt, how true will it be?
Daring I am to disclose my love, for my words are truly from my heart...
To me u is my treasure trove, willingly to be forever your life-long bard...

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3rd~~ quite short>.<>

It was you, whom I hold dear to,
I stood by you, despite where I am to be...
My lady, for you, I will close my eyes and sing,

To be your bard, I will write and melody, until our love shall ring...

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4th poem~ September 11 2008

On the day, I noticed your cheerful façade
Present to me, your lifeless ill fate.
Through the wintry bitter night I stray,
Thoughts of thee filled my day...
Once I said to thee “thou love my love, and I will love thee”Till now I hath doubt, how true is your love shown to me...

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5th poem!!! this is a nice one=D but some ppl think hard to understand... October 19 2008

[Unexpected Love]

The sky ablaze; the golden ball rose.
My heart caught in a gale, towards an unknown, where it flows…
The love, for long, I had yearned to see.

But then, all I gave has never come back to me…

That once I lost you, when the nightingale sings.
Since then, I sobbed, unable to give.
Tears trickle, once and then, everytime it rings…
Tied in me, my head, with mementos of ‘leave’

So true it was, as time ticks and tocks.
Healed, by time, the heart-stabbing thoughts
Long forgotten it seems, but never too long...

Fallen in love, unknowingly, memories, ring a ding-dong...

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6th poem on a music=D not tat good i think... November 1 2008

Poem on Music (Twilight)
Notes, drifted through my ears, from the boy’s solo play...
Reminds me of early years, where I was just so gay...
Was then, the era, whom to she, I loved tons;
Undefined time we spent and happiness continued, through endless months...

Here in a daze, deep in thought...
For our love, so hard I fought...
Tears, dripped from my eyes, so bloodshot...
Hand gripped to chest, hurt as though from a gunshot...

Endless streams of despair’s flood, my classical guitar. I held low...

Strumming slowly, the last part. I end my sadness together, with a diminuendo...

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7th one composed for band ppl who came bak from jap=D November 4 2008

[Back Home]

Far away you were, a week ago...
I lamented about time, tick-tock just too slow...
A smile to be brought upon, despite the flight in which you flew,
I wouldn’t expect a ton, just a smile from you.

An experience to be brought back,
With great confidence within...
Enlightenment there, does not lack,
With knowledge from what’s been seen...

As the climate change, with sanctuary, filled the mind.
Sitting in the plane peering out: Singapore is what I am to find.
The plane landed, just around the night,
The majestic view from above, streets filled with light...

Tired you should be,
At there endlessly you roam.
Not here as you can see,

For here, you are Back Home...

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To all my fellow friends and buddies!!!!The 8th one~ November 5 2008

[Everlasting Friendship]

From that day when we met,
I found in u the best I could get...
You my friend… Is to me, that God bestow,
And our friendship, to me, will never turn shallow...

Bonded we are, Like a sailor and his ship...

Never in our life shall we part far,
Cheers we shall to our Everlasting Friendship...

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It is our Class!!! My 9th poem, First step, also the last... November 7 2008

[First step, also the last]

Day 1, was the first step, here we all met,
In a class a common place, together we stand and sat...
As time rides, our closeness grew,
As a class, we'd unite, together as 1 crew...

Countless obstacles we've overcome,
Despite our Achilles’ heel...
Together as one, even though unarmed,
Out hearts, made of steel…

Our bond of great depth, memories of unforgettable past...
For here was our First Step, and Also The Last...

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We are all together as ONE!!! Every friend's a clover!10th poem! November 12 2008

[A Clover, A Friend]

You were there when I needed you,
My sky grey and u turned it blue...
Together we unite, together as one...
With our friendship’s might, no impossible undone,

During the darkest hour, stress pounded on me...
You brought upon light, boulders lifted, I am free!
Joy hardship and stress we’ve experienced aplenty,
Here we are, still as lively.

For eternity I requested, that our friendship would never descend...

For you, of all was the best... Whom I described... A Clover, A Friend...

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Secretive times~~ my 11th poem November 15 2008

[Love kept inside]

From then on, when that feeling struck,
I realized, love, a heart's spark...
I thought to myself, to whom, not to be told...
Life’s unpredictable, the future, unable to be foretold...

Once, I thought of confessing...
The consequences, very much depressing...
The love to you I had not expressed,
My heart told me to, but I’m unable to abide...
From the day you left, I felt depressed,

To love in secrecy, from within, the Love Kept Inside...

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12th poem!! =D i name this Untitled November 26 2008

[Untitled]

I fell for you, on that day, yes I did...
You flood my mind, you, is all I need...
You left on that day, to a faraway place...
I regretted, in dismay, I could'nt confess, face to face...

Consequences in every path to choose,
A choice, you have nothing to lose...
In me I keep, as time flow…

The regret in me just so deep, I did not know...

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Ok!!! posted them here. Hope you liked it.

smile always(:-...

2011-03-03T23:18:00.002+08:00

Ideological difference really does affects the relationship between people...

Okay... So i didn't post the last few days, i know, i promised Joker... Ya, i never keep my promise. So does it shows that i'm not trustworthy? I guess it does. I'm a liar.

Didn't have the mood AT ALL to post. Lost it, felt that life's joking around with me. I feel like i'm just in this world just because i'm here, and my presence never seem significant.

I'm usually not appreciated for things i've done, and always thinking that being nice would actually make others treat me well too. Well, i guess people just treat you well when they needed something from you. And when u feel that they have been constantly treating you so nice. Well, that'll probably meant that they expect something from you in return. Soon, they'll just ask for more till you're unable to give. That's when they'll just leave u behind and act like they never knew you.

Ever wonder if you were with a total duplicate of yourself? What do you think of 'yourself'? Will you be able to bear with the duplicate's attitude? Character? Hais...

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**Piece of mind**

Love is selfish, when u give your love to another, you'd never expect it be given to you too. Love is blind, you'll never know who you may just spark a fire with. Love's poison is deadly, it stabs you from the inside leaving a scar, memories buried deep in the back of our head.

Love is a blessing, when you are able to give yours and take some at the same time.

Love is intimacy, when one's lust is brought upon one's love.

never is Love, when one's lust is dominant over love.

Life's full of suprises, full of give and takes.

Life's unfair, where you'll never get the best of both worlds.

Life's exciting, when new adventures are brought about, and curiousity are fulfilled.

Life's a burden, when everything never goes your way.

*End*

*Here's the real post*

Anyway, Happy 1 Year and 3month Anniversary to my Girl! :)

Well... I'm sorry for making you upset, i guess i did, and if i did not then... well, then i didn't apologise. lol.

Finally done with the enrolment letter. Damn that thing, so many things to do just because of us people entering Polytechnic? Screw it!

I went to my Future sch today. And i think it was really cool! Escalators!!! lol! It's darn freaking BIG!!!

Humongous-ly, Gigantic-ly, Colossus-ly, Mammoth-ly BIG!!!

It's about 40mins travelling time from my house, quite ok with it. But the it will be darn boring in the train... 30mins train ride, sheesh...

I alighted at Yio Chu Kang, and walked out of the station, then i stun. I was like O.O...

"Where to go?"

so i decided to follow some youngsters as i see all of them walking in the same direction.

I followed and followed until about 10mins, i realise that they were turning to the right halfway through the pedestrian pathway which it seems to me to be only going all the way straight. Then i see them turn i was like, "Oooo..."

Took notice of the signboard reading 'To Nanyang Polytechnic'

and i LOL-ed! it's like an underpass pedestrian into the sch. Took 1 escalator up to the 1st floor, then another one to the 2nd floor where the Student's Service is at.

Didn't get to tour much of the sch as i just hand in the reply letter and left.

Oh oh oh!!! In the middle of sch got 1 small fountain, which is like a pool but not a pool -.-''

I almost fell into it, wtf! I was listening to music while texting when i realise i was walking a bit towards the side till i'm like 2 steps into the fountain -.-'' LOL!!

Fortunately, i didn't fall in :) and had a safe trip home.

Volleyball today was boring though, still ok lah. Didn't really do anything. Ended early today, then head home. Ate dinner just now and was damn full! Bittergourd Soup!! Woo!! lol! ok that's all. Good-a-bye!!!!
*
smile always(:-Everyday is like a burden...

2011-02-26T23:17:00.002+08:00

Have i told you? Well, even if i had, i'd like to say it once more.

I loved you before, and i'm loving your now even more.

Eh... ello all! I'm back. Yes! I'm back from Volleyball! Ok, relax, not so fast, let's start with the intro first alright? :)

Woke up at about 9.30am today, sms-ed Joker. Well... I didn't know it will wake her up, i thought that the msg will be noticed only after she wakes up naturally rather than from disturbance. Anyway, She's still bugging me about some stuff that had happened!!! AAAaahhh!!!! Played the com in the morn and went down to the market for lunch and bought some stuffs to stock up the fridge at home with my cousin.

I don't know why, but the basketball game seems so addicting!! LOL!! Anyway, shall not get too engrossed in the game. About late afternoon, my junior sms-ed me to go for volleyball at College West ITE. So i agreed. Went for v.ball but was late, but all went rather ok. Managed to get into some matches in the mix-ed court and played rather so-so. But seems like i'm not really enjoying a lot at the ITE, seems very much like a stranger there...

ended at around 9.40pm and went home after that. Now i'm at home, and i'm HUNGRY!!!! T.T FOOODDD!!!!!!

smile always(:-Gotta control myself.

2011-02-25T23:39:00.000+08:00

I know, I know, I know...

Damn... So now how?

Ok... so for today, let's see... hmmm... It's a Fri... boring day again...
Woke up and had breakfast, um actually brunch. Joker came by my place after sch, what a surprise! LOL. Soon, she went for her CCA.

Played Com (the sniper game) and play till pek chek! argh! nvm .__. Played other games and watched tv until about 6pm, went out to send Joker home :).

She was telling me about her CCA stuffs and lamenting about them, lol. She made it sound like she doesn't like her CCA XD but i know she does though.

After i sent her home, i was on the way back. When she called me up.

Went up and helped her finish her dumplings and drank some soup.

Soon after awhile, i had to leave.

And head home.

smile always(:-It won't happen again... I promise.

2011-02-20T22:34:00.002+08:00

Guy, "If only girls would be more direct in what they want and would like to say..."
Girl,"If only you guys took the time to understand what we want and what we were trying to say. :)"
Guy, "Well, if only you girls were more willing to open up to us."
Girl,"If only guys were willing to sit down and listen."
*
*

Hohoho! Yup, i'm posting again. Well didn't post the last few days... I seriously did NOTHING which is why i didn't post... So, why not let just start with the post shall we? or maybe.. Shall i?
*
Had Volleyball Yesterday, was boring... Outdoor... Passed the file to Si Hui and met Jeffrey before heading to v.ball.
Joker was in a bad mood yesterday... Didn't know what to do, i mean... When she's upset, i will too feel upset, but it just seems that i always don't have what it takes to cheer her up. I seriously don't know what good she sees in me... :'(
*
So it's today, Tues... A boring day, so boring that it seems worse than studying, SERIOUSLY!
I just want Poly to start soon... i can't survive any longer having the same routine almost everyday, where i would just stay at home and so nothing argh!
Hmm... Speaking about Poly, some people are talking about their enrollment letters, omg! I hope i got it too!! Aaaahh!!! Letter Box!!! Check Check CHECK!!! Damn excited about Poly life :) hope that all goes well. Well, without doubt, Joker seems worried that i might change, as in change in character and etc. well... What that's gonna happen in the near future we won't know, but 1 thing for sure is that my love for you won't change :)
*
smile always(:-I actually wonder... What is it that makes us close to each other? Well, my answer is love and intimacy. What's yours?

2011-02-18T23:30:00.001+08:00

Smiling at those grateful pleasures,

Craving for yet another desire...

Hmm...*rubs chin* think think think.

Heh! Friday today!!! Woo!!! Ok, so let's see.

Woke up extremely early today, about 9+ and i'm awake. Played the com after breakfast and stoned at home till about 12.30.

And yes, that is to send Joker home! lol. Watched her eat her late lunch and she scammed me that the chicken, was actually beef -.-'' haha! She asked me if i wanna drink Choya, i told her no. Can't imagine my drunken state.

Then she gotta go for her CCA, so we chiong-ed to sch. LOL! Like seriously CHIONG-ED!

Went to meet Kailin at lot 1, surprisingly her mum was there too 0.o... and so was her sister O.o...

Ok, so they bought some stuffs and went to Kailin's house together with them. Ate cookies and talked about some stuff. Oh oh, gonna help them change a booklet at Lot 1 as it has errors inside. Their mum asked me to do it, so i said ok :).

Stayed at her place till about 4.30pm before leaving for badminton.

I reached Clementi at about 4.55pm and reached the Sports Hall at 5pm sharp. Wow, talk about efficiency LOL!

Agi and his bro came and played matches... Things didn't go well, and i was under a lot of pressure... Didn't have the motivation and willpower to continue playing... :( sad...

Dislike the guy i was playing against... Doesn't know how to wait for the players to get ready before serving... I guess i'm just not good enough... sianzxzxzxzxzxzxz<-- LOL!!! jk, not gonna type like that .___.

Shall play again on Sunday against the Uncles and Aunties :D Woo!! Love it! lol. kk. bye.

smile always(:-Your embrace i'd yearn, your touch i'd desire. But it's You i'd Need :)

2011-02-18T09:31:00.003+08:00

[Twilight]

Beneath the pitch black sky,

to myself i would lie.

Together with nature i'd lay,

'i miss you' to myself i'd say.

Now we'd rest, awaiting the sun to arise.

Yes, now we'd rest, under the moon with life.

Hello. :) I guess someone would find this poem very familiar. Well, i've read it, thank you. For once i thought it's one of those forgotten poem i wrote and never know how it was written.

Went to sch today to help Joker take her raquet, and i was seriously bored. Met Si Hui at the canteen and we talked. after a while went to her class, and looked around. Then Simon came, well, i asked him to come as i've got stuff to be passed to him. Chit-chatted away until it was 4pm, then i headed for v.ball.

Volleyball today was quite ok, i still think i'm not good enough, damn, seriously deproved...

So, things were quite rush. After v.ball, i met up with Joker to pass her the raquet, and headed to Zhenghua CC for badminton with Shao Lun and some other friends.

:) Won Joker 2-1 singles. Re-match soon, cause i think it's not counted as Joker was very tired.

Play doubles match and Joker had to leave.

Ended at 8pm, and head home. I reached home and i was really REALLY hungry, argh... FOODDDD!!!!!!

Anyway, i just hope She does not tire herself out... She's getting more and more tired each day...

smile always(:-Dont want to see you suffer so much...

2011-02-16T23:20:00.000+08:00

I don't want you to tear, i hate it when u get hurt.

I detest all that makes u sad... but i may be one of those reasons u felt these...

It's the end of CNY!! And i am fully broke!! Not even a dollar in my wallet. cool huh?

Well, Spent the whole day at home, and sent Joker back home. Things didn't go well, i thought it would be some kinda happy time where we could see each other again, but nope, it was the exact opposite.

I think it's just the wrong body gesture that tells me a wrong perception. Let me elaborate.

It's like, i'm preparing to send her home, and i told her that i would meet her at the lrt station, then, she knows i'm still preparing, BUT BUTT BUTTTT, she just went of continuing the journey on the train... i'm like, wtf? Shows me that u don't look forward to seeing me. Then i become sian... my face now was like grey<-- (not yet black).

Then i let it pass, on the call, she said, "If don't want then don't send me home." I was EVEN more WTF! It's like, i CHOSE to send you home because i wanted to make u happy. It's like, i don't even feel appreciated at that moment, know how unhappy i was? ._. Sending her home was never a burden to me, instead it was a joy, something that i'd do because i like the feeling of having someone close to me, and being able to spend time with your loved ones. And today in particular, it just seem like nothing... I don't feel excited, and neither do i feel happy.

She cried, and i really think that she's in a bad mood. I am totally HELPLESS. I can't do anything to make her feel better. Guess the only thing that can help her is herself... Since i always can't do anything, i feel utterly useless, redundant. Shit.

Reached home, and i'm already full from the unhappiness. Used the com and things went on as usual.

smile always(:-Hate being useless, Hate being helpless, and i HATE being kept in the dark.

2011-02-14T21:30:00.002+08:00

Lol... Everyday is just an ordinary day...

So hi, i am here to post like i've promised. Well, nothing happened today other than v.ball... Boring day actually... :( don't feel like saying anything about today. hope the rest of the days goes well...

smile always(:- ...

2011-02-10T21:58:00.003+08:00

Hais... Yawns... Sian...

Hello! I'm back, but not really back, you see. I don't really have much of a choice. She just wants me to post, and i don't know why. I guess it's because she'll understand me more? Oh well. *yawns* XD

Woke up at about 10+. So many messages spamming into my phone!!!!! Thus, i'm unable to get back to sleep. Ate Carrot Cake for breakfast, then started using the computer. Darn, i'm so sian that i am soon gonna die...

Some of Simon's friends came to over, and i don't know why -.-'' they all just appear with Simon, well... No choice, so i opened the door. Watched tv with them and talked about some stuffs, laughed a bit and about 4 they all left. Well, not to forget, i left the house for v.ball too.

Head to sch with this girl named, Jingyu. Talked about some stuffs regarding Simon and herself.

Had volleyball training and darn!!! HATE my new shoe! Causes my skin just above my ankle to wear off, and it hurts!!! Sad... Trained quite well, and had some fun playing a fool LOL!!! Hope to continue v.ball in Poly. :)

Ended at 6.30 and head home for steamboat.

That's all :) good-a-bye

(K I'm DONE!!!!)

smile always(:-lalalalala boreddddDDDDDDDDD

2010-12-23T21:23:00.002+08:00

Holidays...

Ok, Today was Sec 1's Orientation day. Welcome newcomers to ZSS the school where you Engage and CREATE. LOL!

Went to help out at bkshop today with Simon and Clement. Met Si Hui in the lrt.

Gathered at A2 classroom and breifly told the 1st time people about the procedure and the position of stocks. Sat and waited for the Principal's talk to end before we got ready to sell the books.

Meanwhile, Stuffs happened. Like Si Hui and Eleanor playing ._.

And chatting and laughing about.

Helped out at the Express side. Quite slack this year, last year was worse.

Only sold for like 2hours and then the day ended, fast eh?
And Si Hui really seem to me like a sotong -.-'' So jelly-like...
Looks very must like Wai Man too!! (Sorry Pascal)
Everything ended and all the things have been packed into the IDPW room, then everyone started slacking.
The girls, they started to play and scream except for some.
About 2, the girls that were playing left, and Carol came! LOL!!
Everyone just act and find something to do, haha.
We all left at 3pm and all headed home... Work tmr again at 8am. aaahhh!!!
Bye!
*
smile always(:-I'm thinking... It won't happen, i guess i'll just let it be, we'd probably have no time either...

2010-12-14T18:30:00.002+08:00

David Cook-Always be my baby
*
We were as one babe,
For a moment in time.
And it seemed everlasting,
that you would always be mine.
*
Now you want to be free
So i'm letting you fly
Cause i know in my heart babe
Our love will never die, no
*
You'll always be a part of me
I'm a part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
*
I ain't gonna cry no
And i won't beg you to stay
If you're determined to leave girl
I will not stand in your way
But inevitably you'll be back again
Cause i know in your heart babe
Our love will never end no
*
I know that you'll be back girl
When your days and nights get a little bit colder
I know that you'll be right back, babe
Oh! Baby believe me it'l only a matter of time
*
You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby...
*
You'll always be a part of me (you will always be)
I'm part of your indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on (we will linger on...)
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
*
Always be my baby...
***
My heart is getting itchy now!! Holidays are boring... And i'm lazy to even find things to do...
Maybe, hmm... Maybe!! i should start reading books now! :D
ok... So, I've been to badminton training for 3 sessions already, and i think well... i'm bad at it.
Improvements still has to be made though...
Joker is off to Taiwan!! NOO!!!!! It's already been more than a week... I'm sad... Very SAD :(
She even said that she's not gonna see me after she comes back... -.-
Must wait till a year.____.
*
Currently waiting for her to be online anddddddd...........
I really can't think of any poem at all... hope she doesn't force me, promise that i will write one when she's back. PROMISE.
ok, Shall eat dinner now :D
*
smile always(:- Please time, pass slower when i am able to spend time with her... :'(

2010-11-23T00:58:00.002+08:00

Give give give, till i've nothing left.

Take take take, but i'll never have.

Treat others how you want others to treat you. This? Bullshit. Just fk yourself if u believe it.

It NEVER happens.

Just had 3 nightmares ina row. Fuck. I don't feel good.

Forget it. Nobody cares.

smile always?-:'(:'(

2010-11-18T09:56:00.002+08:00

Girl:"What if i said i wanna let go?"

Boy:"Then i'd say fine."

Girl:"Are you going to ask why?"

Boy:"No. Cause i know that if you ever need me again, i'll be right here waiting for you."

Girl:"If i were to two time you?"

Boy:"I'd say fine."

Girl:"What's the reason?"

Boy:"Cause i know if u ever miss my touch, you'd tell me and i'll reach out my hands to you."

***

Ok. 'O' levelsssss isssss OOoovvvvveerrr!!!!!!! In your face wahaha!!

Oh i forgot... What's 'O' levels? never heard of it .__.

Days seems kinda boring now... I'm trying very hard to find something to do. I wanna play sports! Volleyball!!! will be going back soon. Wanna see my juniors, especially the sec 2s, super guai lan people -.-''

Packed my room already, and it looks as though the whole room has become much much MUCH more spacous. darn the papers. Burn the books! Tear the pages! Wooo!!!!

ok let's start from 2 days ago.

16 Nov 2010.

Happy Belated birthday Shanice. actually... I thought we should celebrate Hannie's and ZL's one too.

Shall celebrate ZL's birthday at Edwin's house soon, or maybe we could all go out and have fun whatever's the choice.

Went to Bugis Junction and had Swensens(Cause there's the 1 for 1 lunch promotion ._.) Woo! Shiok. Ate the ice-cream cake too! Too bad Shanice doesn't want to feed ZJ the cherry. Mr Tay even suggest that they crossed arms and feed each other LOL!!!

Gossip and Gossip could be heard from every corner of our 5 tables of 9 people talking about teachers in the past.

Then we all went to walk around to find suitable outfits for Grad night. I bought mine!!! Thanks to those who helped me choose the shirt. Especially to Mr Tay.

Soon Mr Tay left. So we went to Bugis Street.

Hannie got her dress. ZJ and Darwin managed to get a shirt for themselves but not the one for Grad. Night.

as for ZL and edwin, they just couldn't find what they want.

Went back to Junction for a snack, and met Su-lynn group, met Engwoon too.

After that, chatted a while and head home in bus.

Talked about many many many things on the bus with Xenia.

Shhh!! lol!

And that's all for that day.

17Nov2010.

Went to meet Shanice in the morning. We went to have our eyes checked.

Zj came along too. Me and Shanice bought contacts. Zj did not as his was too expensive due to his assist difference between both eyes is too much.

Then Shanice and ZJ took bus to lot 1 and i went to meet Munjun, Su-lynn, Darwin and Eugene Eng for b.ball.

Went to Town with Eugene, got his blazer and belt. Walked around town, tired... Walked till 5.30 before he head of somewhere to meet his other friends. While i had dinner with my dad.

Ok, so that's all.

But if i let you go, i will never know.

What my life would be, holding you close to me.

Will i ever see, you smiling back at me.

How will i know? If i let you go.

smile always(:-I'm holding on till the end, will you?

2010-11-09T23:45:00.003+08:00

'O' Levels!

Ok, How were the 'O' level papers? IDK, probably dead? Let's just wait for the results shall we? -.-

Lalala... 'O' Level's ending, well... i know it has yet to end and i'm posting? O.o... but... alright fine... i'll just keep my hands away .__.
Joker wanted this post too, so ok here it is...
**
Woke up late for the intensive today... Started at 9.00am but i woke up at exactly 9am lmao...
Went for the 10.30 session and stayed back in sch to chiong my Physics TYS. Well, of course, i did it! :D *enlightenment*
stayed till 6pm...

Was feeling extremely bored after that... zZZZzzz...
tired too... Head home and had dinner.
Used the com and did some Chem qns
that's all. oh btw, Joker just nagged at me ._. darn. Hate you com...
***
Just wait... wait and wait... 19th of Nov is arriving soon anyway.

smile always(:- Want to see you soon...

2010-10-14T23:10:00.002+08:00

Trust me girl, you were never at fault.

No matter what you do, I'm still treating you the way i did when we first met.

~~~

Aaahhhhhh!!!! Post Post Post Post Post! Lol... Updated after aeons of neglection.

'O' Level is just about to approach us graduating students. Some in great anxiety, many other in extreme fear, while some may just be idling their day, hoping for the best to come.

Cynic behaviour inculcates, for one believes in selfish reasons as motivation.

Ok! So, prelims, fail... Did exceptionally bad. Nevermind, it's not the end, i'll do better!

Had Biology lessons, tiring... seriously... >.< headed off to play badminton with some friends and Joker. :) It has been a while since i've seen Joker already, i do miss her badly. Blame it on my tight schedule... :( Just because of 'O' Levels. Hopefully she can just give me a visit or so. Probably just once will do, My time won't be as tight once i'm done with my 'O' Level Exam.
But for now, i have to give in my all. Its going to determine my next step towards a greater future.
'O' Levels! Bring it on!!

Send Joker home today. Euphoric! LOL!
That's all... um well, shall post if i've got the time, it's really hard to find time for anything now... >.<
Bye.
**
Still loving you the way you are. And it's never gonna change.

smile always(: -If perfect's what you're searching, then just stay the same.- Bruno Mars-Just the way you are

2010-06-24T22:16:00.002+08:00

She:"Why aren't you there when i needed you!?"

He:"I was, i am always there."

She:"No you aren't, you were not with me yesterday!"

He:"Just that day that i had not the time..."

She:"Then will you be there for me?"

He:"Yes i will, always will. But time isn't always our friend."

She:"What do you mean?"

He:"I want to be always there for you, together with you."

"But there will be times... That i'll be absent."

She:"..."

He:"Tell me that even when i'm not with you for that period of time, you'll be waiting for me."

She:"But i want you to be with me."

He:"I may not always be there, but my heart will. I swear."

He:"Not even my life will be worth yours, trust me."

*
*

So, it's thursday... Yes, i know i should be out there on the way home by now... But, i ain't out there, but at home throughout the day. I just don't know how much must i give in, i'm just too obliging, gullible too i guess...
*sigh* forget it, i'm just too uncertain of myself.
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Oh, forget the top part, it's nothing.
So back to the post.
Thursday today! AAAHHH!!! School is reopening... I'm not prepared. Come on, come on! revision, revision!
Slept till 12pm today... >.< argh, so late!!
*
Cousins and some relatives came over today played com, and the adults spend the whole day talking and playing cards.
We joined them and played, but only a few cousins bet money in.
Watched anime with cousins after that, played and joked like crazy.
Till 10pm, they all went back.
*
Still looking at my undone homeworks... How!? ok -.-'' i know, i was lazy to do it. damn! Gotta chiong! HELP!!!
*
smile always(: - Dissapointments are inevitable... but i'm just making everything worse... what a jinx...

2010-06-19T22:22:00.005+08:00

The future was never certain

Sad isn't it? Holidays are soon over, and yes, we are much closer to the next exams... saddening isn't it? yup, i should at least post something or else this blog will die eventually.
*
Shall start the post from thursday.
*
17.06.10
Went back to school to see the volleyballers in the morn with Ms Tham.
She's gonna take the test to being a NIE P.E teacher :D Good luck with the backroll XD.
Followed Ms Goh and Ms Tham around while Ms Tham trail through the tests, something like napfa but harder that tests not your stamina or strength but your overall physical ability.
Hah! i can do the backroll! WAHAHAHA!!!! lmao...
*
Was on the way out of sch as i'm following Ms Tham to BPP to buy lunch when Ms Anna(School Librian) called me to the library. Well, how does she know that i'm in sch? I have no idea .__. ? ?
Followed Ms Tham to BPP and went to lot to find Joker, she was with Brandon. They had Pastamania for lunch while i was trying my 'best' to smuggle a photo from Joker's phone. LMAO -.-'' didn't work. (btw, darn the book for being sold out! eh... i didn't go to the toilet >.<) * After lunch, we all met with Eng and headed for the gym. Joker and Brandon joined in :) Supposingly Xin yu is to be there with us, however, due to unforseen circumstances(It's the truth that we didn't expect her to not make it) she arrived so late that she didn't wanted to do any workout. So we all split ways and head home. Well, of course, i sent Joker home. Talked to her, and she told me something, well... ok... i know, i shouldn't have always let you make the decision, sometimes i should take over and let you rest. ** smile always(: -I'm still a bit worried about that 'spoiled atmosphere' thing. hmmm....
19.06.10
So, Saturday... bored... Practiced some math questions and started using the com. Headed down to the market well, NTUC and Fairprice to buy some dry food to stock up at home. Bought a few other stuffs too :)
BUT!
Reached home liao, i realised that my yoghurt is missing, damn!
Took the receipt and went down again to claim it._. Idiotic.
Rotted at home the whole day, as i can't go out... sadly, unable to see Joker.(i know this sentence is gonna remind her about something, but... that's what i was really thinking at that point in time)
*
At night, it seems like Joker wasn't that happy. Chatted and talked about some matters. Things went on well.
Lights out.
smile always(: - Now i fear is your commitment... It is not i doubt, but it is that it's too uncertain...
**
20.06.10
Ok! Don't wanna talk about this day... Everything just went wrong! Shall not elaborate. :\
smile always(: -I doubt that chance where i could lie on the bed, holding onto you in my arms... Just so secure

2010-06-12T00:36:00.002+08:00

Quite some time since then

11.05.10
Holidays are halfway gone. Have y0u done your homework? Bet not ._.
Ok. so let's post about today. Was out from morn till night.
Went to IMM with some friends to buy stuffs for an outing, ate Long john for lunch, darn... don't really like LJS, given my hunger and desperation for food... I've got no choice -.-''
*
Out of the yellow<- it's blue btw ._.
Brandon sms-ed me, i was like 'Huh!?' replied and found out myself that it was Joker that asked him to sms me(could tell from the questions in the msg lmao...) went to Clementi to find her and Brandon.
Saw another 2 of Joker's teammate, Puteri and Wan qin<- should be spelt like that.
They were also eating long johns! OMG... tolong tolong save me from ljs.
So, after eating they decided to go to Warren to play bowling plus badminton. Thanks Brandon, for the sacrifice? 0.o man i feel bad>.<
*
Went to cck and took the shutle bus, played bowling first, eh... I WON Joker again!! :) lols... didn't played well, amatuer here!
Played till 5.40pm and booked a badminton court. It was like one of the greatest obstacle trying to communicate and understand what the warren person is talking about, seriously, her pronunciation is TERRIBLE! Not to mention, must have scored superbly badly for her oral back when she was in her pri/sec days.
*
Borrowed Brandon's shirt to play, i think i seriously suck, but -.-'' hais...
I shall admit it, i am an amatuer. Yes a Noob.__. rofl(roffle) XD
Played till 7+ before heading of home. Don't think Joker reached her standard, maybe she just doesn't have the touch,maybe.
*
Send Joker home. (She was feeling giddy, got me a bit worried. Yes yes, i know it's a small matter and there's no need to feel worried about, but -.-'')
Went home at a fast pace, trying to reach home early. and now here's the post. Still awaiting what Joker wants me to do. So i shall end here now.
Goodabye! :)
smile always(:- Badminton!!!

2010-06-06T12:33:00.003+08:00

"I've got to understand." "Understand what?" "Understand you."

"Why understand me?" "So that we can be one"

Ok lah, joker... Posting liao.
Hiya all! Long time since i posted, busy with Study camps even after 'O' Level MT paper ._. (i really hope i did well, or at least a B4? Please!)
So, after much pestering, i've successfully posted this post for the sake of posting. Oh oh! and also to Satisfy joker since she really wanna know what i would post about, lol...
M18!!! LMAO~
3.05.10
Anniversary today!! :) 6months Joker! Got something for her. Aaaahhh, like finally i found it after running around trying to get it :D
Thinking of seeing Joker today... But then because of time constraint, did not...
such a busy girl she is. Hoping that i can find her sometime this week.
Had study camp from morning till later afternoon, then went home soon after.
Did practically nothing at home, and chatted with joker at night.
Darn she forced the gift out of me, spoilt it ._. she said she's gonna throw it away in front of me -.-''
RAWR!
**

Aaaahhh!!! M18!

5.05.10
Oooo It's Saturday!! But sian... still i've no routine on saturday, so it's still a boring day. I really wished that Joker could have time on a Saturday, just A saturday.__.
Ok! so, went to play ball with Mun Jun, Eugene Eng and Darwin in the afternoon. Played till 5+ then Mun Jun and I went to Lot1 to buy stuffs. I bought Peel Fresh drinks and a box of granula bars which is damn nice :D
there's still a free yoghurt with it and it's iced yoghurt, WOAH, shiok! :)
walked around lot, ended up in the library. Borrowed a book, after spending some time reading it.
7pm, walked out of library to basement and da pau noodles back home as dinner, :( sad... got nothing to eat at home...
Joker! Cook for me!!
After dinner, left house and headed for Kranji to find joker ._. I stood there at the interchange like some kinda lost person in Singapore, lol...
Realised that Kranji is a very boring place, walked around and there's nothing interesting at all. The mrt station seems like the best place to be at-.-
Sent Joker home and gave her the anniversary present.
went home and watched some movies while chatting with Joker and slept.
Nights all!
**
smile always(:- I'm already yours, i'm giving my all.

2010-05-25T21:51:00.002+08:00

'O' 水准来了!

谢谢老师, 你启发了我.
*
This shall be a short post, got to study.
*
Went to sch with Joker today, stoned in her class.
And guess what! the photo in my hp has been deleted!! ARGH!! T.T
What can i do?... I've got no more copy of it in my com and there's not another photo of that which i can find.
Had MT intensive like always, damn tiring and was struggling to pay the fullest attention. I know i can do it!
After MT intensive, had normal lessons, slept all the way, teacher didn't care.
Just too tired...
Still as usual, there's night class today till around 8.10pm, supposingly till 8.30, but it's ok, the teachers have their own life too.
Went home, and reached home a bit earlier. Now, STUDY!
Shall at least give her a call later, lest she gets worried.
(Shall not elaborate any further) :)
***
我有个梦想, 但要达成目标是由我决心决定的.无论如何,我肯
拼.所谓"有志者,事竟成"我一定能达成目标的.
smile always(:-I have a dream, an almost impossible dream. But i will try, for hope is always there.

2010-05-23T20:12:00.002+08:00

'O' Level MT!!

Ok, so my MT 'O' Level is around the corner... Was having night class the whole of last week, tired~!
All in my head is chinese and only chinese, it seems to become a norm now, as there's chinese everyday, i seem to have gotten used to it already.
Suddenly chinese seems to interesting, lol idk why, maybe it's true.
学而不厌<- means we have to really learn to know the joy of learning.
Haha! Chinese and more chinese! Jy. It's a B4/B3 i must aim for. Nothing less. To the end!
*
(Some thoughts of mine)
I'm using this few mintues to type down the things that i appreciated you doing.
*Whenever i did something wrong, you would always forgive me even though you don't say what i did wrong.
*You would always make funny noises to make me laugh.
*Always keep things to yourself when u know i would worry.(though i wanted to know, but i knew why you didn't want to say it.)
*Taking up responsibilities even though sometimes things that happened wasn't entirely your fault.
*You may be a bit harsh on your words, sometimes indirect, but it made me a much more enduring person.
*You made many decision because i was undecisive most of the times.
*Put in much effort to make things smooth for both of us.
*Trusting me(even though your words seem to tell me otherwise.)
*Made me a much more understanding person than i was before i knew you.(Cause i have learnt more than i know from our time together.)
*Loved me like no one did.

smile always(:-I love you Joker.

For Mother Tongue, all the way!!

2010-05-08T20:20:00.005+08:00

Never told you

****
Colbie Caillat- I Never Told You
*
I miss those blue eyes,
How you kiss me at night, i miss the way we sleep.
Like there's no sunrise, like the taste of your smile,
i miss the way we breathe.
-
But i never told you, what i should have said.
No, i never told you, i just held it in.
And now, i miss everything about you.
Can't believe that i still want you.
After all the things we've been through,
i miss everything about you, without you.
-
I see your blue eyes, everytime i close mine,
You make it hard to see.
Where i belong to, when i'm not around you.
It's like i'm alone with me.
-
But i never told you what i should have said.
No, i never told you, i just held it in.
-
And now, i miss everything about you, can't believe that i still want you.
After all the things we've been through, i miss everything about you.
Without you...
-
But i never told you, what i should have said.
No, i never told you, i just held it in.
-
And now, i miss everything about you.
Can't believe that i still want you.
After all the things we've been through.
I miss everything about you...
Without you...
******
Here's a song lyrics, not gonna post anything for today. Don't have the feel.
So yea, Study hard for exams, no wait. Study Smart :)
*
smile always(:-Full of questions, and i know the answer... Never going to bring it up, cause i don't want you to know... Please don't ask me, don't ever... I beg of you.

I never give my love,

expecting something in return.

But now i do, I just want your smile.

But i'm not capable of that, am i?...

2010-04-30T22:28:00.003+08:00

Soon, my time will be yours

Exams!!! Shit, somehow i don't think i can finish all revisions... I think time isn't really going to be on our side. Time to prepare, just about 2weeks before end of MYE, and about 3 weeks plus to 'O' level MT paper. Whatsmore, after MYE, there's MT intensive!!! dammit...
*
So anyway, Let's post for yesterday and today.
*
29.04.10
Had Eng Paper today, argh! Thought i will die (touchwood-.-'') but survived through it somehow. Not sure how badly done, but let's just hope for the best shall we? :)
So, After Eng paper, started to feel a bit giddy, and unwell... Seriously unwell, not sure why till i got home, when i've just gotten a fever, plus the flu is somewhat bad. Felt like dying already, wonder how i'm gonna take the MT paper tmr... ugh!
Ate some medicine and started feeling the side effects of it, drowsiness... slept and then wake up continuously for umpteen times.
Torturing...
Wanted to Chat with Joker, but in the end dozed off due to my drowsiness (Darn, she must have been upset again...)
***
smile always(: -No matter whatever i;ve done, and how i treat you, i want you to know that i still love you.
*
**
*
30.04.10
Woke up at 6.30am and checked my temperature, still ok... But head hurts like hell and my nose is killing me... Kept thinking that i couldn't go for the Chi paper... Sms-ed Joker and she somewhat forced me to go.
Chiong-ed out of my bed at 7.10 and wrote a note on a paper to tell my popo that i decided to go to school last minute.
So, i saw Joker on the lrt, but can only smile as i was feeling very giddy.(makes me feel like i'm ignoring her >.<>
Reached sch and took the papers, Paper 1 was quite ok, but Paper 2 -.-'' D-I-E! Rawr!
Nose bled halfway through paper 2, but was fine. lol... Must be see some girl lah ._. jk.
Felt like fainting at first after Paper 2... Can't help it. However, in order to hand in the CCA forms, i had to go home and get it, then return to school.
Reached back at school, hand in the forms and went to the library to find some ppl there. Stayed for a while before heading back home.
BUT! When i reached home, i felt better after taking an afternoon nap.
So, now felt much better.
All in all, have to thank Joker, i understand why she forced me out of bed to take the exam, just worried for my academic results bah. Thank you Joker, I love you.
*****

Sorry that i actually lost my temper...

It's just that i feel that you wont tell me some things,

but i know the problem is with me,

I did not pay enough attention to you...

I made you feel like i care less compared to last time,

I made you feel upset from the empty promises made...

Sorry...(even though i know it will not change anything by just an apology)

smile always(: - I swear, all i want is to spent time with you... Please understand me.

2010-04-09T15:48:00.003+08:00

Just one night.

Joker's going for camp today at Palau Ubin. Darn it... missing her right now. Anyway. Here's the post.
*
Today!! IS BORING!!
But not 100% sleepy, even though i did doze off but at least not that much.
One more thing!! IT IS FRIIIDDAAAYY!! :D. Ok. So, i had lessons today, realised i didn't learn a lot today... seems like other days are more enlightening than today. Chi was extremely boring, but it seems like the most productive lesson.
Sch ended at 2pm and wanted to find joker, but seems like she's busy, so i just went home... (can't believe i did that but... some weird feeling is getting at me).
Shall do my hmwk, all of them, seriously. And then enjoy my saturday and study on Sun. This shall be my 'timetable' for the weekends. :)
Enjoy your weekends people!
smile always(:-Take care :)

2010-04-03T21:23:00.002+08:00

I still need you

Haha! I'm posting again!~
Enjoyed your Saturday? Well, you should and if you have not, please do enjoy all your saturdays, it's the only day in the week that allows you to pass the day without worrying about any stuffs(well, job and relationships is an exception, that is if you've got some problems on these)
I enjoyed today, felt so good keeping myself away from all my troubles.
*
So, woke up at 7.10am today, despite sleeping for just a few hours, i feel energetic, wonder why... weird. Who cares anyway! LOL i'm hyped-up today. So, had lessons till 11.45pm from 8. Not that boring, but i wasn't listening in class too -.-'' darn...
Went to eat lunch and headed home to get my rackets for badminton. BADMINTON!!!! WOOO!!!~ uh-hm!. Ok.
Tiring... Rest for awhile and went to play basketball till 7.00pm haha! :D
Well, played under the rain as the weather was not favourable, but we still ignored it.
Ate dinner after that and headed back home.
*
Ow, now my feet feels so numb >.< and my calf seems like it's gonna cramp anytime, but it didn't.
Anyway, shall do my hmwk tmr... Dammit, got to force myself to finish them... Can't get lazy now! ARGH!
*
smile always(:-No matter how carried away i am in my stuffs, i still think about you momentarily.

2010-04-02T14:26:00.003+08:00

Alluring was your touch with grace,

needed was your embrace.

Addicted to your scent,

stuck to your hand.

4months of school it has been, had things gone well? Wished it was ain't it?
My days in Sec 4 since the start of school has pretty much been the best.
Friends around me, and a girl i've never thought i would have. She was great.
Time flew so fast. Everything fun just seem to past with a blink of an eye, now they were history. Times are different and people change, friends are there for us, but not all are always there for us.
*
Over these few months, i've learnt many things in life. One of which is that i get to know very much more about people around me, i've learnt who are they to me. I'm very much grateful.
*
Emotions. What do you think they are? Merely a trick played by the brain to allow us to act accordingly? Or is it just there, a feeling of what we think of? It's subjective. Who is controlling who? The brain controlling us, or is it us controlling it?
Negative feelings are common, examples would be jealousy, sadness, melancholia and where our hearts get stabbed hard as though shredding into tiny remains-Heartbroken.
If we are strong enough, we could be emotionless, which is, we could control how we feel. Oh, how i wished it was possible.
Positive feelings would always be what we could experience. Joy, laughter, the sense of security and the cupid's power-love.
How cool is that!.(dream on -.-'')
*
Just something in my head, i shall just post it.
-
Haven't you realised love is such powerful thing that it can make someone utterly depressed and feel like they would rather rip themselves apart than to feel such pain and agony of the broken-hearted?
Scenario1:When 2 people come together happy at first, but soon, the devoted one would always be the one at loss, in the end, the Mr/Mrs. Devoted will fall into the world of love's torment.
Scenario2: 2 lovely people come together both with great devotion towards each other, they had the futuristic view of a happy ending. However, obstacles for them are great in difficulty, filled with complication and sacrifices. And in the end, they met with 1 obstacle, impossible to overcome. Thus, ending up in separate ways again...
Why must such pain be brought upon this, masking love's evil with such wonders and pleasures that we are all allured to it...
But i know, what we need is faith and trust.
*
Ok, well... So here's the REAL post.
1.04.10
Welcome to April! How i wished it's still in January now -.-'' It's too fast, or maybe not fast enough... I want 'O' level to come quick! The faster the better it is, so all the torment can finally end!!
Oh oh! what's the good thing, it's that tmr's a Public Holiday!!! Woo! It's Good Friday, a Very Good Friday(NO SCHOOL!! :D)
*
Lessons were still the same lifeless... and nothing much happened, other than lectures by our Geog Teacher, like again?0.o but i understand what she wants... But i do pay attention in your class. :)
After that, Maths!!! Mdm Chong's absent, Woohoo!!! 3 periods of free lesson!! Once in a lifetime joy. Stayed back to get SS worksheets. The classroom was swarming with people from 5Ns and 4Es -.-''...
Wanted to meet joker at Lot after that, but i can't make it early enough. So she headed back home.
*
Went home and used com. Chatted with Joker and Slept.
***
2.04.10
Pig, i think i'm one now ._. What i mostly do is Eat and Sleep... Woke up at 10.40am today... ate breakfast and watch some tv programmes.
Joker sms-ed me just now saying she's near my area, and it was a SCAM! RAWR!
Make me happy for a while... It's not April fool also.-.-''
Lots of homework to be completed, Maths, Eng, Chi, and many many more. Tired!~~
Lessons tmr, but i think sat lessons are quite fun though. much more relaxed rather than having some dumb stupid curriculum time where reccess is at 9am and after that no lunch till 3.30pm!? Curse that time-table!
Can't believe i still haven't started on my homework and any revisions... Shall do it soon.
Signing off~
:D
****
I came to realise that when things have gone too well, it's never a good thing... It's just weird why are the obstacles between us just almost impossible to overcome, even though we did. But i fear there may be even worse obstacles, i will fall in desparation...
smile always(:-Sometimes, being too open has it's cons...

2010-03-27T20:23:00.004+08:00

If i could,

i'd be you for a day and

bear all the sufferings you've gone through...

Time and time again, i've cause much troubles to you. You'd bear with it. I bet, it's been umpteen times that i have made you think of it the wrong way because i didn't call, it's my wrong... I have not been good enough to you, i've let myself down. Many times, you have become unhappy, because of me. I saw how much you have put in our relationship, i've just not given enough. Now i just wished you could torture me. Even until now, doubt of my commitment still exist in you. I couldn't make you laugh or smile like before, i suck at starting conversations, i know nothing of jokes... Sometimes i doubt myself, Have i even kept my promise of making you happy?...
smile always(:-I cry, i tear, it's not your fault... I've not bring happiness in you, but sorrow and troubles...

2010-03-25T21:44:00.002+08:00

Faith, trust, that's all we need...
*

Ok, so... Today... Nothing much.
Just looking forward to tmr's Band Concert :)
----
Well, today had many many lessons as usual,
Maths remedial has been cancelled!!! :D
No test!! Woo!!!
So, as usual, lessons went on. Oh speaking of lessons.
I suddenly dislike that new chi teacher during MT class,
she seriously very k-po. Likes looknig around at our desks.
When she stood and stare at my wksht, i was thinking ' WTF do you want, go away from my desk and what are u staring at!? '
Oh and did i mention? I just dislike her from the time i see her -.-''
*
My mates are currently addicted to chinese chess -.-'' wonder why...
Even though it's very intellectual, but however, it seems to make them go bonkers ._.
Chess, chess, chess.
Even during every lesson also play, and hide it under newspapers?...
Got confiscated during CME lessons, LOL!! and they had to collect it after school.
So after school, they all was like,
"eh, play chess leh."
"Cannot! No chess set!"
"Go take from Teacher lah"
"Nvm, they go already, i go E2 see if got extra."
*goes to E2*
*comes back with another chess set* (WTF?)
See! Addicted right?
After school, called Joker, and chatted. Then head off to v.ball.
Wasn't fun at all... Waste of time... I just don't have the 'feel'.
Went home for dinner... And that's all.
**
smile always(:-Trust, it's just so hard to earn... But i'm still trying.

2010-03-19T21:56:00.003+08:00

Not tempting but Addicted [lol?]

So, here's finally a post, so this is how long my 'later' is... lol...
Just so tired to post ._. anyway, here's for yesterday and today.
*
18.03.10
First of all Happy Birthday Eugene Lim!! :)
Sorry i didn't attend your celebration, i already had an appointment.
Went to Ktv with Eng Woon and Xinyu, they said what i wore was unusual.
But, nvm lah, I'm leaving early also, so it doesn't matter, does it?
Was at Ktv till 4.30+ and left to clementi mrt to meet Joker :D
Wierd shirt she was wearing... Not really used to it, but still ok.
Anyway it isn't her's.
Joker came over to my house and stayed till 8+
Really can get along with my sis -.-''
They seem to have a lot of fun, lol...
Spend time with joker and she went home.
smile always(:-Sometimes, i just don't want to let go of you
***
19.03.10
Had the Chinese Creative Writing in the afternoon, thought i was late.
Reached at 2.30, however, i wasn't late, lessons haven't even started -.-''
So it lasted till 4+ going 5. And went to lot library with Mun Jun to borrow some books.
Ate piekia before that, N-I-C-E.
Joker's last day of AEM, lol... finally, at leasst she's not gonna worry about projects anymore ._.
Met up with joker at lot, and sent her home.
Currently, she's sleeping, shall not disturb her too :)
Must be tired after days of AEM, poor thing haha.
Good Night all! :D
smile always(:-Yes, i'm addicted, addicted to you.

2010-03-17T08:48:00.003+08:00

Taking a punishment unable to bear...

I have been neglecting you for some time... i feel bad about it. It's not you, it's me. I just have to punish myself for the things that i have done which made you unhappy. but i hope it will end soon. I want you.

Throughout those days, i used to sing you a song.

Always wanting to spend time with you, i thought nothing would go wrong.

Time and time, i've made you unhappy, made you disappointed.

Now i wanted to punish myself, for i feel guilty, i felt remorsed.

Sorry i was, pondering through,

how stupid i was, to say those to you.

But i know, how you are feeling now.

Unless i feel forgiven, i know there's not turning back somehow...

Just for a day, and i wanted you to stop.

But from what i see you wouldn't, maybe not now...

Nomatter what i said, u should know too.

That i want you, i love you.

***

smile always(:-i wished i had not said those to you... Torture me if you want, i'm willing to take it.

2010-03-07T22:28:00.003+08:00

We all need the person who will be true to you.

It's not that i don't want to say, i just want you to read it on your own...

Only then you will understand why i do not want to tell you myself.

Post for today? well... ok, but i'm still with a glum face :(

Woke up at 11.40 today, ate breakfast, noodles + cereals.

Quite a lot though O.o... but it's a my brunch, so it's still ok. haha

Spent the whole day at home felt so dead... i've become emotionless-.-

Thought about lots of things within this weekend...esp yesterday.

Conclusion! Nothing happened today. just a post for the week...

I can't continue typing anything more, not in the best of mood today.

*****

I've got words to say...

But i just don't know how to put it...

smile always(:- I ain't giving up on us.

2010-02-28T20:32:00.002+08:00

Always thought i could fulfil all i wanted...

When i came back into reality,

i realised, i wasn't the only one living in this world...

Alright, just to show that i'm not lazy, i shall post about yesterday and today. Once again, I'm not lazy, i just don't feel like posting. :)
*
Let's start with yesterday.
*
27.02.10
C-I-P today!!! Arrgghh!!!!!
Nah, it isn't really that bad as i thought it would be.
Somehow, i enjoy doing that. But to make things clear.
I like Helping, But i dislike Serving.
Our bus headed off to B'well(organisation of the Old Folk's Home) at geylang. Reached at about 9.20-9.30am.
ZL and Shanice was the MC :) lol.
All was quite ok... didn't do anything until the part where we have to help the elderly to serve them their food and beverages.
Some were quite lively and were very joyful:D
i seriously do feel glad helping them, seeing them so happy.
There was some performance by Victoria Sec and Catholic High.
Enjoyed the Chinese Orchestra by Vict. Sec :)
*
Lunch soon, and we didn't eat much as there was still more to do.
We had to help out give out the goodie bags to the elderly.
Plus, we had to help them carry it to their buses as the goodie bags were too heavy -.-''
Can't they spare a thought for the old people that they have not much strength? Such a heavy goodie bag... crazy -.-''
The elderly left in their buses and we left soon after.
*
Went to play ball with Usual people, but not all of them went.
Played till 7.30pm from 2pm. Ate dinner at greenridge with MunJun.
Talked about some stuffs, and headed home.
Called Joker to see how's she doing.
She's in alcohol mode-.-'' but not drunk yet.
Disturbed her in saying i was drunk too lol!
(was expecting her head to hurt the next day._. drink wine and choya-.-'')
Called back at around 1am and chatted for awhile before sleeping.(or should i say, doze off? O.o) lmao...
*
smile always(:-You lift my spirit with your cheerfulness.:)
****
***
**
*
28.02.10
As usual, its a Sunday, 'logged' on my bed till 12.20pm before waking up.
Wondering, where's my breakfast till i realised the time.-.-''
Spent the whole day at home using com and reading up on Physics for the upcoming O-Level Phy SPA... Can't screw up this one argh!
Was entertained by Joker as she was in the city buying Storybooks
When she got back home, called again and talked lots of rubbish -.-''
Shall not elaborate further :)
*
smile always(:-Bathing in peace :D

2010-02-26T22:51:00.002+08:00

Lethargy+A pinch of pain

Friday!!!! The best day of the week!

Woke up at 7AM today! A.M! wtf? I woke up and looked at my phone.

It was off...Out of battery, Darn!

BUt!! BUT!!!

I reached school at 7.30 =) fast right? lmao...

Prepared myself and left house within 10mins, damn fast. LOL

Didn't meet Joker, as i overslept ._.

O-Level Bio SPA today! Totally D-E-A-D.

I record wrongly... Hate myself for such stupid mistake... F**k!

Had MT Creative Workshop right after sch and went to the NE Museum

at around Fort Canning road there.

Quite ok actually, interesting :) felt enlightened =O

Ended at 6, and took half an hour to travel back to sch.

Sent Joker home.

smile always(: -(will add in if thought of any)

2010-02-21T20:17:00.002+08:00

Unburied hatchet

Ok. PS for not posting like i've said.
Can't use the com that much to post.
Anyway, this post is for yesterday.
However, not posting what happened today. Lazy.
*
*
20.02.10
Woke up at 7 and fell back to sleep till 7.40.
Went to remedial, was late by 30mins -.-'' like always...
Bio was cancelled.
Played basketball with a handball. quite dumb but funny XD.
the ball flew over the fence once -.-'' and had a hard time finding it.
lol... Went to Lrt to buy drinks with Edwin,
while the Zl, ZJ and Darwin went to the library to for pool.
Came back just in time, and we all played 1 round with Mdm Chong.
*
Went back home after lunch with them.
Went to Warren, to find Joker.
Saw her badminton training :)
Followed her back home then went home to buy dinner for sis.
*
All i did, it was never enough to me.
So i'm giving everything i can. '
To show that i care.
*
smile always(:- Sometimes i feel i can't make u smile as much as you made me.

2010-02-14T00:00:00.000+08:00

Wished i could have done more...

I think i've not given you the best...

This post, to my Joker.
I love you! Happy Valentine's day.
Wanted to meet you at night,
and i thought maybe even for a few mins would be fine with me.
but too bad you aren't at home.
So this is the least i can do.
*
smile always(:- I Love You Joker. Just want you to know. You've changed my life for the better :)

2010-02-13T22:04:00.004+08:00

Can't believe i took it so seriously...

but i can't help feeling bad about myself!

Happy CNY to all!!!! Wooo!!

*but seriously, this year's CNY is very boring to me...*

Well... woke up at around 11.

Helped out a bit for today's lunch and prayers.

And watched tv for almost the whole day, something i rarely do -.-''

but seriously, the day is just too boring.

Plus! 2 monsters(2 toddler cousins)

came over and stayed till after dinner before heading home!

Torture... luckily they did not harrass me that much ._.

Escaped from the living room from the smoke when the adults were burning the hell notes.

The smoke just stings my eyes._.

Dinner was ok, had buffet. but still ate less. For once... i skipped the shark's fin soup. :(

I felt so dead the whole day... made Joker unhappy(apparrently she wasn't even mad...)

but i just kept thinking she was...

don't know why i think so much.

ugh! feel like smashing my head against the wall!

Felt so bad... well, i'm just gonna spend the valentines alone.

nvm, i know i will enjoy it, i guess...

Shall just blast music in my ears now. Happy V.day to all out there.

You knew i would feel bad, didn't you? :(

smile always(:-Argh! my head hurts!!

2010-02-07T00:43:00.003+08:00

Nothing can stop me from being with you

Ok ok... shall post now, let's not be a pig shall we? ._.
So... this post is for friday.
*
05.02.10
Hm... quite a short day, clas was as usual, nothing much,
paid attention during MT class :)
Finished a compo during chi remedial plus half done chi hmwks.
Satisfaction felt! :D
Went home at arnd 2+
wasted time sleeping all the way till 5.30 ._. i just love sleeping xD
Changed and went to jlp to meet up with Joker.
sent her hm. Something very unexpected happened.
Shall mention not of that.
Still feeling afraid...
smile always(: -My weakness... My greatest phobia... is of losing you
*
06.02.10
Well, didn't go for Maths remedial today as i overslept
plus i didn't know that i must go._.
Attended Bio remedial at 10, took test.
hopefully i didn't fail it -.-'' started studying it only at the lrt on the way to sch.
LMAO...
Stayed back to take eng summary test. Was doing it slowly, and finished just on time xD
Played ball with mates and ZL sprained his ankle... poor thing. Hopefully he's fine.
*
That's all for the past 2 days. nth much actually.
Currently talking to Joker. She's eating Noodles!! rawr! nvm.
I'm not hungry. :)
*
Off i go.
goodabye! :D
*
smile always(: -still thinking of an alterntive... How can i prove myself?

2010-01-30T21:39:00.005+08:00

And yes, i knew why you are in my life.

I don't detest you of who you are.

Even though i dislike your attitude.

I still feel grateful to have you as a friend.

You are my teacher of tolerence.

Hi people! How's your 1st month going? Exciting? Boring?
Nah, i feel neither. To me, it's like an exam everyday,
every day is like exams to me.
Lethargy has become very common in my life.
hyper-activeness, gradually fading away ._.
*
29.30.10
Nothing much throughout the day, quite a short one though.
Recess is at 11!! RAWR! so late! Hungry~
Been dreaming about food in the morning lol.
Survived with an empty stomach throughout the day, what a torture...
Had Bio Pract just before Recess! argh! Disected the cow's eye...
Smelly+Disgusting+shit... Utterly disgusting, almost puked twice.
Chem last period.
Camped at the library and Saw MJ using the com, so i went to disturb him:) irritated him till 6 and sent Joker home.
*
Homework is a torture too._.
*
30.01.10
Late for maths remedial by an hour, um... ya, by AN HOUR! lol...
Wanted to play pool but library was closed,
even though we saw that it was open at first -.-'' too late...
Ate at greenridge and went off to play ball. Had a tiff(shall not elaborate)
Played b.ball with mates, played halfway and Simon joined in.
And an extremely funny thing happened to Edwin.
Janwin thundered the ball and hit the board,
then Edwin ducked the ball, to our greatest astonishment.
His butt was whacked by the ball! L-O-L!!
The most funniest scene ever XD
Went to Simon's house. Played Xbox.
And now at home, slothing...
*
Still thinking of something. idk what. shall post it someday.
smile always(:- Can't bring myself to go far away from you.

2010-01-23T21:50:00.005+08:00

It hurts everytime u do that,i've been trying to accept, and i'm still trying.

Had remedial lessons today, maths, then bio.

Played 1 round of pool in school after remedial.

Ate kfc for lunch.

Played b.ball with usual people.

Not to forget,chatted with joker before her training.

Played till 5+ before heading home.

Went to the market with my sis to buy dinner.

Came home and watched tv with dinner bought.

So that was all that i've done today, nothing much.

Today post was totally emotionless, cause i'm feeling moody now.

Shall get over it soon.

I think i'll just wait till next week to post a more hyped-up post.

*******

Sometimes, i am able to read what u are thinking,(It's sometimes)

sometimes, i'm left in the dark.(there are reasons, i know)

Sometimes, i could feel how you feel to me, from what you are doing.(I trust you)

But sometimes, i felt coldness, pain as though a stab in my heart.(I agree i'm sensitive...)

Ever did i make you doubt me, question, and i'll say.(Don't want you to doubt me)

Ever did i made you unhappy, tell,and i'll do it the right way.(Don't want you to be upset)

I wished i could prove to you that i do love you.(I still don't think i did)

Through effort and actions to show that its true.(How?)

Seeing you, your smile was all that takes to brighten me.(Even your laugh through the phone)

Your presence i'd miss, you, i'd yearn to see.(Thinking of you, even at the most unexpected times)

****

-Looking at my phone and thinking to myself, "why hasn't she replied?"

-*hears nothing after countless hellos* Wondering, "here it goes again... sigh..." heart dampened
*
smile always(:-Not heartbroken, neither pissed. just a pinch of pure sour-ness

2010-01-16T21:21:00.004+08:00

Its like, um... omg? O.o

So, as requested, shall post for yesterday and today.

15.01.10

Went to sch early, and was like sort of late by a few min._. sry to make u lose your seat again.

Went to Joker's class till it was around 7.30 before heading back to class.

Quite a hilarious day.

Edwin was actually being bullied the whole day!

When we went up the stairs, he will be pulled back to 1st floor by ZL and upon attempting to come back up.

ZJ would try to kick him -.-'' quite lame though, but surprisingly, i was inside too. LOL

I was pushing him further from the stairs XD

Quite bored during lessons, so i sat with Eunice with my biscuits that i bought during reccess and i was like tempting Edwin to eat it, but refusing to give him =D

omg, i'm like damn bad to Edwin today, hm... but he's used to it anyway right Edwin?XD

Geog was the last lesson, and i was like PAYING ATTENTION! omg! It's geography! wow!lol

didn't sleep in class today, what a diligent student :)

Had chi remedial, wrote the damn compo within 1h and went to kill time in the library.

Saw Joker for awhile before her cca.

Went home.

Waited for her at the lrt to accompany her back home, was doing my eng compo at that time. still didn't manage to complete it. soon it will be done.

Went to her home, and watched tv, holding onto some kinda alien toy lol.

Hopefully stitch does not loses his head, poor guy._.

See her use the com and watch some kind of dumb video? 0.o about the orange being irritating, lol.

Then her sis came back. Got hit by her, as i sent a wrong msg and our small quarrel started again as usual -.- and Joker was like, "can you two stop quarrelling."._.

Well, some other stuffs happened.shall not elaborate further. anyway, i'm gonna improve RAWR!

Your imagination starts here. :)

smile always(: -resist! resist! ugh! darn._. lost again.

***

16.01.10

Woke up for remedials today, was late by HALF AN HOUR!

Haha, the tcher's expression was shocked when i came into the class

especially when it's with Xinyu. :D We are the BEST! LOL

always nvr hand in hmwk tgthr and nvr bring bks tgthr, now even late tgthr! LOL

Played basketball with the usual people and this time Edwin came along! MIRACLE! Once in a lifetime, he came along!

And Oh Oh! before i forget, today was the funniest day of my life!

Laughed like some kinda mad person.

let me share it.

After remedial, we played badminton, casually.

And when i hit the shuttlecock behind Edwin, he was like going backwards to get it, and he jump and missed -.-

the funny thing is that, he fell backwards when he landed!

He was like staggering backwards before falling

HAHA! Damn funny!

And the 2nd time was before we went to play basketball.

We were just playing for fun, and Edwin was the 'monkey',

so we throw the ball and when i threw it to ZL, Edwin jump and landed and slipped.

And fall. LOL hilarious! He was like, "wa lao eh! Wo hua dao leh!" rofl

3rd time was when we were playing basketball, halfway through a match, the he just fell while snatching the ball.

made me laugh, really on the floor rolling. omg, still thinks it's funny even when i think about it XD

And as usual, Joker would prank call me with her sister ._. put my phone to silent, and soon they're done prank calling =.=

Bought dinner for my sis and stayed at home.

Joker is currently at her cousin's house, was only able to call late at night.

well, so be it. Shall wait till that time.

smile always(:-Makes my mind go wild.

2010-01-10T21:58:00.002+08:00

Just too over-sensitive

I lack communication today, i feel like i totally lost it...

I just feel extremely weird today, just totally weird._.

Ok, so i got up at 10.30, ate breakfast, and went to meet Joker and her sis at lot 1.

But unfortunately, we are unable to have lunch together.

Met up with ZL in the library, which at that point of time, he happened to be there.

Read up some interesting books in the library, Shakespeare's poems are like WOW.

Can't understand some-.-

but if able to understand, it's really a very meaningful poem.

Met Joker with her sis and another 2 more guys, Jia Hao and Jon(not sure how to spell). Went to West Coast.

Had fun, and Jia Hao was really like a joker, funny guy.

We all headed for home at around 6+

Sent Joker home.

I hate dissapointments, but why is it that i still do make ppl dissapointed!? hate it.

smile always(: - I've got nothing to lose but you, for i will lose all, but you.

2010-01-06T21:07:00.003+08:00

This post is for the you.
I know what i did that day,
i'm already feeling guilty like what u wanted me to.
I want you to know, that i'm proud of having you.
And Yes, i love you.

smile always(:-I trust you in whatever you do. Please don't feel confused.

2010-01-03T21:44:00.003+08:00

Getting prepared, for the temporary coldness.

Woke up at 11+ Zl came over to edit the project.

Stayed at home, till 2 and went out for awhile to meet mates.

Like crap! it rained so heavily... got drenched -.-''

Headed back home asap to open the door for joker and her sis.

Didn't expect her sis to tag along, lols, but nvm.

Stayed at home for awhile before going to b.ball with joker and her sis to find mates, as it wasn't raining already. However, played for a short while, but at least it was fun =)

Some exercise was what i just needed.

Went back home after that which was about 6.40+

bathed and went to eat with mates. bought bubble tea, Honey Aloevera is nice i've just realised :D

Gonna be a nerd soon... books books books! like argh! nvm, i'm gonna make friends with them, they are gonna be a very good friend to me ._.

darn...

****

He said:"Those i should not force out of you, i'd do none.

To your wishes if i could i'd abide, consider it done."

And continues,"Us two may be frank, honest"

but in fact, there some things neither of them know, due to fears.

Tell not of this to him lest he gets hurt, she says...

Speak none of that to her, afraid of pain, he says...

That was something i was thinking about in general, quite contradicting somehow. haha.

Shall go off now, gotta make a call :D

smile always(:-heard of this phrase? 'once an idiot, always an idiot' well note this meaning, 'once in true love, always in love'.

2010-01-02T22:06:00.003+08:00

Flaws are to be accepted, but not to be changed

Woke up at 12pm today, luckily, Zl called, or else he wouldn't even be stepping through my house door._.

Did project like the 2nd day already, couldn't finish it yesterday. HATE HOLIDAY PROJECTS!!!

Was damn fun today, when we did the project, played the com, we were taking turns.

Laughed and started being lame, had a laugh that i haven't had in quite some time.

Played daidi, bluff. Damn Hilarious!! i think people can hear us laughing from the void deck ._.

Basketball tmr! finally i can play some sport, as there's no training on thurs... Damn bored.

Need some Exercise!!

School's reopening, ok i don't wanna rub on it._. don't really look forward to it, but anyway, we should enjoy the 1st day of school in year 2010.

So, YAY!! SCHOOL!!!

smile always(: - Happy 1st month! :)

2010-01-01T00:51:00.001+08:00

1st post of the year!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

smile always(:

2009-12-31T23:40:00.002+08:00

Last post for the year! 2010's here!
another year has flown pass.
A new start awaits us:)
*
Did nothing today, totally nothing, was sick... down with, i think a slight fever, darn it!
Bad day for me._.
maybe because of the peppermint that i shared with joker arh, LOL! just jk XD
*
Anyway the 2 'monsters' came over and stay till night-.-'' was living hell, fyi, the 2 'monsters' are 2 cousins of mine who are still toddlers...
irritated by them... they keep calling for me and my cousins. they are still small anyway -.-
*
Before i end off, i want to say Happy New Year to everyone in this WORLD! To all 4Es, Chiong for just a year, and another opportunity will be availible for us in future.
Same goes to all 4Ns, be prepared, and be promoted to sec 5.
Lastly, All 4NTs. Do well too!
Good Luck everyone, may everyone experience longevity, prosperity, and most of all, be showered with love.
Happy 2010! =D
*
smile always(: -Happy New Year.

2009-12-29T23:12:00.000+08:00

Ok, post for the 29th.
didn't post yesterday as i was quite tired and slept early.
So here's yesterday's post.
*
Woke up at 9 and prepared my stuffs, called joker at 9.30 and the call was rejected -.-''
went to meet joker with my sister, also, came up with a plan to get her off her bed ._. lols... shall not do it again, later get beaten up or even worse, torture.XD
*
Went to causeway and walked around umpteen times, and ate gelare.
Ran around the whole causeway, we keep going past the same shops over and over again.
Bought the movie tickets, for my cousins. Alvin and the Chipmunks 2.
the show makes u wanna dance, LOL!
(My hand hurts after the movie ._.)
*
Went bowling after that, played the small arcade there for about half and hour while waiting for a lane.
Bowled pretty well, but wasted lots of shots._.
BUT! I scored well, and i won Joker again! by 1 point :D
Was damn fun:)
finished at around 7pm and bus-ed back to cck.
*
Sent Joker home and passed Joker the gift.
Saw lots of interesting things LOL!
Shall not elaborate any further. =) imagine all you want.
*

smile always(:-我没那个必要说，因为我知道我对你的感觉是真的。

2009-12-28T21:57:00.002+08:00

If you feel like letting go, i won't let you fall...

Wahaha! Finally, striked off! Ok, it's the 28th, of course, i've been waiting till this day. :D yea!

Woke up in the morning, feeling a bit irritated, idk why, maybe cause i've not slept pretty well. went for training, was quite fun, not as much stress, but still kana scolded, nvm. my fault also, lmao...

ended at 12.30, went to bp to eat lunch, as usual i ate laksa! :D lol!

finished at 2+pm.

Headed home.

Rched and was waiting for a call, like omg... suspense killing me lah! RAWR!

Slept in the afternoon, like again...-.-

woke up for dinner, and A CALL!! Like finally...

used the com and chatted.

Going out to movies witth cousins tmr:)

hopefully they will not be irritating-.-

Till then...

Back home you are, like finally.

smile always(: -Joker!!!

2009-12-26T20:53:00.002+08:00

Wok up at 8am today, and packed clothes for the outing today, lols... and ZL's finally back from beijing! We are all looking forward to you coming back cause we still have a project to do!! rawr!
*
Met the usual ppl at 9 and trained to pasir ris to eat breakfast, Mac.
Bused to Escape beside Dwntwn East.
Enjoyed the haunted house and the ship thing which swings 90 degrees, damn shiok,make u feel like your heart is gonna pop out of your body=) sat at the last seat which is like the best, cause it's the steepest, shiok! played 2 times :)
*
The haunted house was fun, but realised after awhile, it wasn't scary._. and it's like halfway through and no longer scared-.- not scary enough, but got freaked out once, haha when i got freaked out the girls went crazy LMAO! hilarious man!
*
These 2 are the best part, lols but actually the theme park is quite small.
Got to be bigger, then will it be exciting =D
*
Rained when we were almost done playing, lols, then all games suspended._. haha.
Decided to go to Bugis as i need to get my formal clothes, didn't expect all of us to go, lols... sorry if i take a long time just to buy 1 clothing >.<
Wanted to take the big cab, cause it will be cheaper if the cost is being shared between all of us, but in the end, cannot get one, lols Zj scolding all kinds of vulgarities just because of that, LMAO!
*
Took 2 taxi, 3 person each to Bugis instead, tired of waiting -.-
went into a few shop and was like, wow... all the price was Woo!~
scary...
Went to Bugis Street instead and i got a shirt for $33 =) Was damn crowded>.< don't really like it, anyway thanks to those who helped me choose, i think i will like it, since i bought it too LOL.
*
Went to lot as some need to go home, bought what i've been saving up to buy, also to eat dinner. ate KFC... -.-'' fast food again!
then went back home at around 8+
*
Now currently waiting for joker to be online, gonna wait till 2.30am, my eyes are gonna roll out of my sockets... lol
hopefully joker is gonna be online.
*
Lastly, 1 more day!! (from 27th Dec)
smile always(: -Keep holding on

2009-12-25T20:21:00.003+08:00

Hohoho! Merry Christmas!

Yes! It's Christmas! Merry Christmas everyone! Hope that everyone has enjoyed their holiday and this Christmas, well, sch is gonna reopen soon aaaahhh!!! But also good, 'O' levels come earlier, end earlier.

Woke up at 2+ today ._. lol and wow! my sis cooked Chao san si and rice :) thanks. It's been very long ever since she cooked, then that was my lunch. Stayed at home throughout the day, slept at 4+ till 7.30 and woke up to bathe and ate dinner...

*
Trying to change my blogsong, but seems like the playlist has some problems ._. i can only have 1 song... RAWR!

Shall do it another day, i'll just leave that one song to play.

Sleeping early today, i've got a long day tmr.

Joker's not gonna be online today i presume as the joker is going to be out the whole day, must be tired once back home. Rest early and get rid of those eyebags!

Anyway.Have fun there:)

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I want you to know very vividly that, i love you just the way you are.

Despite all of your flaws.

smile always(: -I'd like to put all my time on you, for i am afraid of how my time will be allocated for you next year

2009-12-24T16:12:00.002+08:00

It's Christmas Eve!

Ok... i was wondering, if there's anything that i can do to keep myself from feeling so irritated everyday. Felt distracted and so 'heavy' in the head, there's so many things i have that keep coming into my head, and somehow it just slipped off my mind, on and off.
ugh, nevermind.
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Went for v.ball, hoping that i wouldn't be late, and i wasn't cause Coach arrived after me :) Today was much more enjoyable. But got hit in the face, and suffered a cut -.- and it's near my eye! lols, small one, no sweat, just over-reacting XD
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Ate at greenridge after training, there was a monkey! an old man(to me he's a total asshole) let it run around the kopitiam while he buy his things, damn irritating, it's not entertaining, it's distracting._. Monkeys in a food court? doesn't fit.
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Trained home, however, i don't feel like staying at home, but somehow i didn't want to go anywhere too-.- so contradicting.
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Shall end off here, currently talking to some joker.

smile always(: - 4 more days! =)

2009-12-22T21:52:00.006+08:00

Downside up...

Today's totally upside-down, everything's messed up.
Firstly, i didn't go for bio remedial, and it slipped my mind that i needed to work too, luckily i no need to go back today... argh! so sorry...
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Had prayers today, the smoke from the burning was irritating as usual, cousins came over, played and crapped.
got work tmr, better not forget... gonna be a tiring day tmr, lol...
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Oh ya, gonna cut my hair soon, like finally... hate it though, but no choice. quite irritating... It will also be better to me in sports, so it does not cover my eyes._.

Entertained myself with the TV and com throughout the day with cousins, watched spongebob which is extremely juvenile,

but funny lah, like i said, entertainment mah. lols watched some other shows on tv till evening. oh ya, ate tang yuan! love it.

played games to kill time, while waiting for joker to be online.

as usual, 1am+ =)

5more days! just FIVE more days.

smile always(: -Till now, thy hath waited, to thee i will prove.

2009-12-21T22:46:00.002+08:00

Finally a bit relieved

21st of Dec today, 2 more weeks to school reopening... ugh, don't like it at all... tmr still have Bio remedial, omg! i'm dead._. volleyball today, was damn fun! i played setter=) seem to enjoy it, lol!

Other than the forfeit from the lost of 1 match-.- so tiring

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After v.ball, head off to BP for lunch, had kfc, and joked around with v.ball people, damn stupid._. very full>.<>

Eat somemore when i got home, lols, gonna get fat._.

came back home and went out for dinner today, had dinner buffet!(honestly i'm really gonna become obese._.)

went back home at 9+, and came online, Woo! Some joker was online=)

chatted, anyway 6days more!(from 22nd dec)

smile always(: -It's only a matter of time:)

2009-12-20T00:37:00.003+08:00

-Continued from morning's post 19th Dec.
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Hihi! I'm back from volleyball, and then, went online. was 12am already, well... and i just finished bathing XD. Supposed to end at 10, but somehow extended till 10.30, lol... didn't played very well today... but did quite a few great saves:) must improve on my underhand.
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Oh ya, i was talking about what i was going to eat for dinner, well... i had Macdonalds... -.-'' didn't really ate to my fill, waste of $$ ROAR! Plus, it's unhealthy, sure gonna be obese one day if i were to eat it everyday.
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Came online at 12 like i've mentioned earlier, and guess what! I feeled so relieved after that, i apologize for sending so many questions, i didn't know that u were unable to sms, and you didn't come online also. I was very worried then.
But when u did, i wasn't online, i feel bad also... >.<
Ok... so it's a new day today, and Countdown!! 8 more days!!!! rawr!!! faster!
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RECOVER SOON!!!
smile always(: -Your welfare&well-being shall be my christmas gift for the year

2009-12-19T12:53:00.002+08:00

Days without you are like hell

The 3rd day already, and u've not been online... Wo xin li you yi dian bu an. Counting down the days, 9 more days. Honestly, if i could go over, i would go right now... i'll let you beat me, i'll let you pinch me, i'll let you poke me....

The 19th today, soon christmas will be arriving, i wonder how will it be like in the city.

Going to have v.ball at ITE at Clementi tonight, won't be back until 11pm.

Hope that it'll be fun:)

I somehow think i'm like on a diet, not really eating much these few days, used to eat a lot._. had an apple for lunch, don't know what's gonna be my dinner lol.

Ok, shall end the post here...

smile always(: -I'm starting to feel afraid, extremely worried, is it counted as insecureness?

2009-12-18T20:17:00.002+08:00

Everyday, i will pray for your recovery

10 days more!! however, it still seems like so long to me._. Faster!!! >.<
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Woke up at 7.50am actually to get ready to work, well... like i said, 'actually' so, ya.. i woke up at 8.20 instead ._. when i'm supposed to leave home at 8.30. chionged to bathe and did everything, oh, and almost forgotten to brush my teeth -.-'' i prepared everything and was getting ready to head off to sch when i realised, i have yet to brush my teeth, i was like, shyt!
Guessed what? When i left home, it was 8.32! =D haha, so i took my time to walk to the lrt and to sch.
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Super busy today, so many customers, tiring... but i think it won't be as busy as orientation, orientation should be the worst of all>.<
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Onlined the whole day, worried... not yet recovered i think...

smile always(: -I miss you

2009-12-17T20:52:00.002+08:00

Today morning, i was late for the bus to punggol, everyone waited for me... lol
Had fun at punggol haha, was very high=)
I was drained of all my energy... feeling so lethargic, slept in the afternoon again.
Saw a msg, and got me so worried, shall not elaborate on it.Hope that you'll recover soon:(
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Nth much to post about today... Just get well soon =D

smile always(:-the worried sick me._.

2009-12-16T23:25:00.002+08:00

These words, are from me:
Honestly... i really wished i could go over, but i can't.
If only you could come back sooner, but not possible.
You know? somehow, it doesn't feel the same even though we chat almost everyday.
I need your presence.
I want to be the guy, that you will think, you are worth being with.
smile always(: -Even guys, do feel insecure at times...

2009-12-16T20:12:00.002+08:00

Needed you here

Chalet's over, checked out at 9am, and followed some to bus back, all the way to cck to try to get some stuffs, but sadly couldn't get it...>.<>

reached home at around 12++ unpacked all my stuffs, bathed and sleep all the way till 7.30pm...>.<

still got invitational tmr at punggol, have to be in sch by 8am rawr!

anyway treat Rebecca da jie to some desserts but not the ice cream yet, soon we shall go and eat ice-cream:)

Saw a formal clothing today, was pretty nice, maybe i shall decide on trying out that, wouldn't look too bad i guess.

need to buy some formal clothes soon, darn... shall go wtih friends someday. anyway, felt so insincere yesterday...

Hopefully 12 days will end faster, and may the remaining days last longer LOL.

smile always(: -missing you already...

2009-12-15T09:41:00.002+08:00

I said, "there's someone I'm waiting for If it's a day, a month, a year"
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Ok, Chalet is today! lol, hopefully it will be fun, will be back only tmr, not sure what time.
Gonna miss *ahem* too.
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Oh, and i've yet to pack the chalet stuffs! XD haha, well here's another song in my head, shall post it.
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Man who can't be moved

Going Back to the corner where I first saw you

Gonna camp in my sleeping bag I'm not gonna move

Got some words on cardboard,

got your picture in my handsaying, "if you see this girl can you tell her where I am"

Some try to hand me money,

they don't understand

I'm not broke

I'm just a broken hearted man

I know it makes no sense but what else can I do

How can I move on when I'm still in love with you

Cause If one day you wake up and find your missing me

and your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be

Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet

And you'll see me waiting for you on our corner of the street

So I'm not moving,

I'm not moving

Policeman says, "son you can't stay here"

I said, "there's someone I'm waiting for If it's a day, a month, a year"

Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows

If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go

Cause If one day you wake up and find your missing me

and your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be

Thinkin maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet

And you'll see me waiting for you on our corner of the street

So I'm not moving,

I'm not moving,

I'm not moving

People talk about the guy

that's waiting on a girl

There are no holes in his shoes

but a big hole in his world

Maybe i'll get famous as the man who can't be moved

Maybe you wont mean to but you'll see me on the news

And you'll come running to the corner

cause you'll know it's just for you

Im the man who can't be moved

Chorus 2x

Going Back to the corner where I first saw you

Gonna camp in my sleeping bag I'm not gonna move...

Coming back on the 28th! :D

smile always(:-All days are nights to see till I see thee,And nights bright days when dreams do show thee to me.~William Shakespeare

2009-12-14T23:14:00.004+08:00

Swear it again and again, that my love would remain

Woke up early to perpare to meet a very very good friend of mine, who is willing to lend me a mic for the com =D thanks arh. Haha! and it works quite well. Finally can speak to *ahem*, like finally :D
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Friendly match today at Geylang Methodist. The beginning was like crap... -.-'' Coach scold again, as usual, even though we won, but lols.. he doesn't care. he wants performance more than results, i guess eh believes that better performance, gives better results which i think is quite true though.
gave us silent treatment throughout ._. he doesn't say anything to us during break, and when like after being persuaded to take the risk and speak to Coach, in the end, got reprimanded again -.-''
nvm, lols forget it, we should all understand :)
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Went to eat at greenridge, late lunch, had a bad headache...

shall end off here, blogger seem to be so ugh!

Chalet tmr! =D 2D1N

smile always(: -i'll be the man who can't be moved, waiting for the day =)

2009-12-13T18:14:00.002+08:00

Another song for today, i just like this song a lot.=)

Westlife-Swear it again

I wanna know

Who ever told you I was letting go

Of the only joy that I have ever known

Girl, they were lying

Just look around

And all of the people that we used to know

Have just given up, they wanna let it go

But we're still trying

So you should know this love we share was never made to die

I'm glad we're on this one way street, just you and I

Just you and I

All:

I'm never gonna say goodbye

Cos I never wanna see you cry

I swore to you my love would remain

And I swear it all over again and I

I'm never gonna treat you bad

Cos I never wanna see you sad

I swore to share your joy and your pain

And I swear it all over again

[Shane:]

All over again

Some people say

That everything has got its place in time

Even the day must give way to the night

But I'm not buying

Cos in your eyes

I see a love that burns eternally

And if you see how beautiful you are to me

You'll know I'm not lying

Sure there'll be times we wanna say goodbye

But even if we try

There are some things in this life won't be denied

Won't be denied

[All:]

I'm never gonna say goodbye

Cos I never wanna see you cry

I swore to you my love would remain

And I swear it all over again and I

I'm never gonna treat you bad

Cos I never wanna see you sad

I swore to share your joy and your pain

And I swear it all over again

[Mark:]

The more I know of you is the more I know I love you

And the more that I'm sure

I want you forever and ever more

And the more that you love me, the more that I know

Oh that I'm never gonna let you go

Gotta let you know that I

I'm never gonna say goodbye

(I'm never gonna say goodbye)

Cos I never wanna see you cry

(never wanna see you cry)

I swore to you my love would remain

And I swear it all over again and I

(swear it all over again and I)

I'm never gonna treat you bad

(never gonna treat you bad)

Cos I never wanna see you sad

(never wanna see you sad)

I swore to share your joy and your pain

(oh no, oh no)

And I swear it all over again

All over again

And I swear it all over again

Congratulations to Auntie Jasmine for the opening of the new Rhapsody office :)

Went for the opening ceremony at 10am ate bee hoon+ many many more other food. saw many kids there too! LOL very cute.

Entertained the kids, till 12pm, then bused back home with Cousin.

Used the com, and was engaged in conversations. video calls too :D

Getting my mic on Monday=) hope it really works.

ugh, currently damn hungry... making some instant noodles to eat>.<

while on a call with *ahem* in msn, too bad i can't speak, but i can hear. To me can already. :)

Friendly match tmr at Geylang methodist sch, don't know where it is but hopefully we can lik gain some victory =) JY to all v.ballers.

Ok, my noodless done!! =) ok i'm going to fill my stomach! =D

15days!! or... maybe? best if it's 15 days =D ok! bye!

smile always(: - await the day you are back

2009-12-12T20:40:00.002+08:00

When you look me in the eyes

Oh, yeah, oh, yeah

If the heart is always searching

Can you ever find a home?

I've been looking for that someone

I never make it on my own

Dreams can't take

The place of loving you

There's gotta be a million reasons

Why it's true

When you look me in the eyes

And tell me that you love me

Everything's alright

When you're right here by my side

When you look me in the eyes

I catch a glimpse of heaven

I find my paradise

When you look me in the eyes

How long will I be waiting

To be with you again?

I'm gonna tell you that I love you

In the best way that I can

I can't take a day without you here

You're the light that make my darkness disappear

When you look me in the eyes

And tell me that you love me

Everything's alright

When you're right here by my side

When you look me in the eyes

I catch a glimpse of heaven

I find my paradise

When you look me in the eyes

Movin' on, I start to realize

I can reach my tomorrow

I can hold my head up high

And it's all because you're by my side

When you look me in the eyes

And tell me that you love me

Everything's alright

When you're right here by my side

When I hold you in my arms

I know that it's forever

I just got to let you know

I never wanna let you go

'Cause when you look me in the eyes

And tell me that you love me

Everything's alright

When you're right here by my side

When you look me in the eyes

I catch a glimpse of heaven

Oh, I find my paradise

When you look me in the eyes

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Started the post with lyrics... this song just popped into my head, so i wanna put it down here =)

anyway, today, woke up and chatted while hoping that *ahem* will be online. soon *ahem* was online, but chatted not for long before i have to go... *ahem* wasn't active at that time, nvm maybe she's just busy. =)

Went offline at around 12pm+ to buy lunch for cousins.

The whole day, was ok... Sian... ITE cancelled. sad, so instead went to play bball with m8s till late evening, and went back home.

Anw, i had a craving today, that was hokkien mee! =D ate it today! Woo! :D.

smile always(: -16 more days!

2009-12-11T23:00:00.002+08:00

Man who can't be moved

Worked today, 9 onwards, chiong home... was thinking of *ahem* that she will be online.
Guess what? i was right, so sorry... i made you wait.
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Mei's having some problems, a bit complicated, very hard to settle... some relationship stuffs... dun ponder on it too much, he my not want you but i'm still here. :)
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Got activities tmr... darn... can't come back to chat, left offline msg to *ahem*, hope *ahem* sees it.
To *ahem*:
I knew why u wanted me to 'say it'... i was a bit slow.
there's a lot of things i wanna say, i want you to come back, soon. I miss you, i need you too.
When you are back, u're never leaving me this long again, i a bit buay tahan already...
and it's like only the 3rd day...
I want you badly. >.<
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smile always(: -when i saw your msg, i was like on the top of the world

2009-12-10T18:37:00.002+08:00

Till the 28th...

Volleyball today... damn sian... Coach damn crazy today...super du lan._.

didn't have the mood to play-.- scold scold scold...

Nth to post for today. lols!

anyway, count down!! 18days!

smile always(: -i'm wating, still waiting, and will be waiting

2009-12-07T23:30:00.001+08:00

Lips like sugar

Today is monday! Went out with *ahem* and Glacier tgthr with Rhys, damn hilarious! Great day ever! I shall elaborate it further =)

Today, v.ball in morning, seriously, coach's seems very unhappy today... for dunno what reason._.

Dismissed early today, and made a visit at the bkshp=) got another surprise ready.

Went to Yew tee and surprisingly, *ahem* was faster than me, *ahem*rched yew tee and spoilt my surprise-.-'' but nvm, still happy with *ahem*'s presence.

Went to JP, to have Haagen daz=D, like finally. But still, of course i remember, i owe Rebecca a treat. Ate 'Bliss' a promotional ice cream in Haagen Daz, with *ahem* being an entertainer? Laughed at smses :)

Met up with Glacier and Rhys soon after, to watch Mulan. How was it? Touching, Exciting,Humorous, overall it was N-I-C-E =D

Oh, gotta wash my jacket too. LOL<-- secret =)

i shall stare at Glacier one day rawr!

Ate KFC after movie which is about 6.20pm, when some suckers called me-.-'' Especially one who's name was Edwin, and Zhan Jiang=.= Damn lame! Laughed throughout the meal, with Glacier trying to fang dian to almost everyone around her LOL!!! and Rhys acting 'Gong' O.o, not forget, my own breed lmao <-- inside joke ;D

Headed for Bukit Gombak, *ahem*'s tuition centre. After that, trained to BPP to find some suckers-.-'' to buy a stupid cake for another unlucky sucker-.-'' must be careful<--take note Darwin!

Returned to Bukit Gombak and the rest is up to you readers to imagine =D shall not elaborate any further. ;)

smile always(: - You're officially mine, 3rd Dec(PT), Thursday. 7th Dec(officially mine), Mon, 2009. FKG

2009-12-04T21:48:00.002+08:00

Post for 3rd dec, lols... shall post again on Monday/tuesday. =D read on readers!
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3rd Dec
Had training in the morn till, 1pm, um no. till 1.40pm >.<
Darn! was late for an appointment with friends...
suppose to meet at 2... end up, i met them at 3 ._.
bowled at Downtown,Pasir Ris
Headed to the arcade there after bowling, spammed arcade which i have never done...LOL but mostly, i'm not the one playing, lols only played with Aaron, Wei theng and Glenn lol!
Played jubeat(idk how spell) the press the cube thing, lols...
extremely hilarious when playing with wei theng! laughed like mad, LOL!!! let's play it again together sometime =D
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after that everyone went home. Shall not elaborate further also, =) But i had a great day =) funny, hilarious, and also unique :D

smile always(: - Love is blind, something so unpredictable... Anything can happen

2009-11-27T22:53:00.000+08:00

Seems to me that it's always about giving...

Tired, tiresome, tiring... argh! Everyday seems so lethargic and sian... Mei's going on a cruise tmr and won't be back till 2nd dec. Have fun and take care =)
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These few weeks i've been rather busy and tired...sry to those whose msg was not replied. though there's nothing much to do, but it seems that i have so many things in mind that i can't even think of anything else! idk why. I seems to that almost everything is a burden...
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Gathering tmr is cancelled... Sad... Joey, hope you are well. hopefully, we will be able to meet up soon, for Sui Sen Rocks! =D

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Things i think about...
Giving
Is that what i can do? what about what others may give in return? Idk, but i've never felt rewarded. or maybe i never felt that what i've done has been worth it... Why does is always seem that being good is so hard?
Friends
Are they really always there for you? Friends? Everyone has countless of them, but who are the Real friends? These are so complicated...
I just wonder, when will these answers be answered, these just seem rhetorical to me.

smile always(: - sometimes things can't be taken too lightly, but somehow it does takes time...

2009-11-09T01:01:00.002+08:00

Still awake at this hour, tired? Not at all. I've made my mind, I've talked to some of them(they know who they are) that i'm not going for it... But i'm worried still... I have faith in you guys, trust me, u will win this for me right?
Think that we are stronger, only then will we gain the confidence to fight against anyone stronger.
It all depends on you all. Good luck and bring me the victory we have all always wanted. Jia you!
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OBS today... Meeting some ppl in the morning, den go meet ZL for B.fast at bp. Hopefully all will go well. If u can't contact me by my number, please ask around for my temp. number =) signing off here, Good luck to all HMT pupils we will all want to hear good news from you all. OBS here i come!!! =D
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Wait wait! before i end off, i want to bid some special people bye cause i didn't contact them for quite some time already... >.<
To W.Kailin! Gan Mei=) don't know why she nvr reply my sms de... -.-'' but i think she will see my blog de, i think. =) Wee!! till i come back at 13/14 =)
smile always(: -Sacrifices still has to made, it really hurts not attending... sorry

2009-11-07T03:19:00.002+08:00

Hi, it's 3.20am now... And i'm posting at such an unearthly time.
I just can't get to sleep now... I feel troubled by something i have to consider.
I just can't make up my mind, i kept thinking of the pros and cons, but somehow, i just can't make the decision! Sometimes, i blame my undecisive-ness. I always can't make any tough decision, always afraid to lose even the smallest thing... I've got to learn how to make sacrifices, only then will i be able to gain much more, but i'm unable to, or maybe i should say, im just afraid, just pure fear...
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Time and time again, i've always wanted to gain things, but then, i've come to know that reward and results are not what the definition of achievement to me is.... But it is the effort i've put in that has given me the achievement of being able to do what i am most willing to do. Once again, i'm afraid to lose the trust people have in me...
What am i suppose to do? someone do tell me... i'm in great confusion...

smile always(: - This is my flaw, and i detest it, despite no one being able to be flawless...

2009-10-31T01:13:00.002+08:00

Check it out!
Pics in Facebook,
find me by my hotmail to see the pics, sad blogger's too slow. =) shall post on the trip another day =D

smile always(: - Happier than i could have ever been

2009-10-29T20:56:00.003+08:00

Welcome back to Singapore!

Hey all!! I'm back from Cambodia and i missed everyone so much!
Missed out so much action in class :(
firstly, i wanna congratz all that have been promoted to sec 4 =)
hopefully all your hard work has paid off =D
Secondly, i miss my friends! Weehee, we are getting together once again! =D
Thirdly, i have learnt to appreciate S'pore more, ESP KangKong -.-'' after the trip.
Pics on the trip tmr, too tired today plus the usb not with me yet. =)
To bed i go! Le Hai(goodbye in Khmer) and goodnight!
smile always(: - Overcomed an obstacle, with friends by my side =) Aw Kun!(Thank you in Khmer)

2009-10-17T00:22:00.002+08:00

One after another...

Exams are over! =D chiong-ed throughout! happy right? LOL! now it's time to party! omg, waited so long for this holiday to come... wished it never end, but den -.-'' WLL.
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Already in the morning now, haiz... watching drama series... See lah, Kailin let me watch, now i'm also watching it... addicted...
Watched it for like 2hours already! But it's really nice to watch lah, i admit >.<...
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Well, Guess what, Ms. Patty Xie's already 1 year older!! not gonna name the age, u know den good, dunno den nevermind XD Ms Xie, see you soon! =)
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Promise Tingwei something, but i'm not really sure if i can do it... i really wish that it has never ever happened, i'm feeling a bit troubled by this, i just hope i can end this...
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Going to meet up with m8s in the afternoon for sports, but i'm still not aslp lols. Still watching the show, darn it! must stop! >.< haha
shall continue watching now =)
bye!

smile always(: -Say that u never loved me.

2009-09-26T20:00:00.003+08:00

Grow grow grow~~

Well, from today onwards, i'm not gonna post, have been SOO busy lately, that i hardly have even any time for myself... have been very ignorant to the things around me as i can't even be bothered... too tired~.~
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CCA has stopped, phew, it's like finally, i almost can't cope with my hmwks >.< Did well for test though, glad to have tuition =D haha, kinda like tuitions dunno why, but was very fun, i remember last wednesday i had tuition, den laughed like crazy, idk why but i just laughed! and guess what, my tcher joined in. LOL!! den i said, " ok ok, stop it liao, do work" and my tcher replied " Eh! u started it one leh!" HAHA!!!
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Oh oh oh!and i'm super excited about the trip to Cambodia! =D We are going!!!! Yea!! leaving 1 week after exams, sheesh... can't enjoy holidays with friends yet... but den, exams first =) i'm gonna reach my target, currently have a goal of going to Singapore Poly, wonder if this path really would work out for me, Biotechnology there. To every students out there, it's time to prioritise your activities, time for the final obstacle of the year. Jy all!! =D to the end!
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Soon, i will have 4 tuitions per week, kinda stress, as my tcher said that i will be going to have to do very hard papers from maths-pro schools, e.g Tanjong Katong? maybe? did Bukit Panjang papers already, fun, but still ok... not as hard as tanjong katong...>.< anw, aiming high for my maths, A is what i would expect from my year's hardwork, i believe everything will have it's results depending on the effort being put in.
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OBS. Heard of it? Yes! It's Outward Bound Singapore! And guess what, I'm in! shocked aren't you, well, i'm kinda sad fro those who can't go... sometimes i really come to know that opportunities are hard to come by... and once they are gone, it's gone. However, When it is rightfully yours, nomatter how far it goes away, it'll eventually come back to you. Leadership is a quality bestowed in leaders, leaders are those wield with leadership qualities. qualities in us leaders is not bestowed upon us to show, but to influence our gallantry and prowess into others to strive towards one similar goal, to achieve the best. =)
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How long have i been thinking about you already? i somehow think it's somehow a little bit immature of me to think that i'm able to gain what i want with my dedication. It doesn't seem to be the case, Instead, i'm destroying myself with this 'dedication' i used to think that is the only key to happiness There are many things in life that makes one satisfied and filled with pleasure... It's just determined from what u think about the things which u have already have or just gained, whether u think that is a greatest achievement, or just plain failure. I came to learn many things in life, each in every level which i have grown pass, from my juvenile years to my present life, now. Whatever which we have learnt throughout our life is just like 'Trail and Error" don't you think? U learnt this, and found out that the one u learnt is wrong, u erase it and fill in another knowledge. So grow up, there are so many things ahead of us, keep moving forward, and we''ll eventually find something which we have always yearned for in our life...
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Growing up... Ever thought that u've grown old enough to do whatever u want? ever think of why we always seem young to our seniors? Think about being a senior yourself, and look at yourself in the past, don't u feel the same? At that previous point of time, we've always thought we are already mature, and know what exactly we are doing. But we are always never old enough for everything. Think about when was the last time u were still fooling around, the stupid things u've done. See the picture? Knock some sense into our minds and be more responsible from now, we are all still in our growing years, learn, learn from our past. You wouldn't want to still be as jejune when u are in your senior years. Everything in our life is time, It's all just a matter of time...
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Well, this is the so-called last post for now, till 15 Oct... Sad, lols... nvm, i can do it! Yes i can!!
Till then readers! =)

smile always(: - I'm strong oh yes i am!

2009-09-20T19:50:00.002+08:00

Getting a hold of myself, all by myself

Yes! i am back, well gotta post before E-O-Y right? if not arh... this blog, DIE!
Anyways, was as per normal today,
woke up in the morn, played games till 2+
Washed up, and went off to play ball with m8s, FUN! =D
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Went to collect my phone and visited Zl,
good to see him alive and kicking like last time.
When you're down, there'll always be us around you=)
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This post may mark the start of our mugging days before the E-O-Y exams
Study smart everyone! achieve what u want, and strive!!
=D currently playing with my phone! darn it rocks! XD
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Ok! i shall post some other day soon =D Happy Hari Raya all malays!! =D
smile always(: - All my life, i prayed for someone like you.

(now it's over)

2009-09-13T17:58:00.002+08:00

What if giving up is not an option? Hope... Till when?

Finally i can get into blogger=.=after so many attempts.
Something wrong with either com or blogger...
Cut my hair today morning! darn it.
Had tuition, and i've yet to finish my homework!! argh!
slacking all the way, to think that i actually toldmyself that i wanna excel in grades. Sheesh.
Hols not like hols.So darn busy throughout the week...
Man... i've lost the mood to do any hmwk...
chionging hmwk soon.
Shall go off now, till next weekend =)
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smile always(: - just get back up, when they knock u down.

2009-09-07T23:33:00.001+08:00

Time Tight!!
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Darn today training-.-'' dun like it at all... outdoor + hot weather+ bugged by bees? so dumb...

training stopped halfway for the lower sec due to the infestation of bees -.-''
The rest were at the gym, it's so not fun. dun like it at all.
eh... my mood today was like nothing, i feel emotionally numb.
i feel so unwilling to do anything now...
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Man... enough of all this.
Had training in the morn, not exactly training, but was at the gym
during training. Funny stuffs happened there, LOLS can't tell XD ps.
The cool thing is that our Coach on the radio in the gym=D
then some of us played with it, and laughed like mad,
but safety first, so we stopped our workout when laughing XD
Released early as the hall and B.Ball court cannot be used.
Met with Jeichiel to eat lunch together with jerel and another girl dunno named called Alicia? 0.o at greenridge KFC. ate and went back home.
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Oh!
Happy Birthday Wei May! (in advance)=) actual day is tmr, but nvm =) dun think tmr i have the time. So, Woo!!!
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Out with m8s tmr, early early morning... argh, sleeppppppp i will miss it. Lmao.
Ok, till tmr! =)

smile always(: -Why don't u tell me?

Why do i feel that u no longer think that i exist anymore?

2009-09-06T17:13:00.002+08:00

Hatred to you never exists, why'd u think that?

Just came back from sport at south view, lols, fun =)
need to keep training on my jumping height,
i want to jump high high high!!!=D
LOLS, anyway, let me post about yesterday~
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bought breakfast with my sis, and ate at 10+, den waatched some horror movies haha =) soon went to buy ice cream, haagen daaz!=D
Eat lunch and went to lot 1 with sis to meet up with Aunt to buy my bag.
Like finally-.-'' got a new bag, but used for sport haha!
Thanks to my grandma!
Den we went to eat early dinner at a japanese restaurant, not bad lah.
Looked at some phones, and i saw the model i Want!! And need to PRE-ORDER!! NOOOO!!!! I must must Must get it!!
Hopefully, my other Aunt can get it for me, i know she doesn't mind the price XD
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Went home and started chiong-ing com with my sis haha! no life -.-'' LOLS.
Gonna start on hmwk soon too these few days, shall start revision for EOY, Aim for 4A1s! RAWR! 2 maths 1 sci, 1 humans, eng CMI, bloody hell from A become C5... ass... push it to a b3 den, darn it, wasted. nvm =) ciong arh!!
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smile always(: -I told you i nvr hated you for what you've done

Yes i admit, i wished it has all fade, but it hasn't.

2009-09-01T20:20:00.002+08:00

It seems like chance is never an existing word in your dictionary.

Lethargy~
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Nth much about today, morning wake up, went to play b.ball with ZL and MJ.
In the end, rained... -.-'' HEAVILY, RAWR!!
i just want to have some time to have fun cannot meh?... sad-ded
wait for it to stop but it still continue to rain, so how?
Me and ZL played in the rain! quite dumb, but a bit too cooling after awhile.
Cannot take it, too cold liao, den run back for shelter haha!
Our shirt super wet!! but still very not contented... NVM ugh.
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Came home, bathe in hot water, den had western cuisine! =D
Grandma's and Aunt's skill together come out with their western cuisine.
Very nice ok! After that used com, sadly, too bored, so watched some tv.
Had dinner at around 7+, but i still feel full from the lunch >.< lol...
Oh ya! Hmwk not done leh! :o chiong arh!

Shall end off here =) hmwk time!

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smile always(: -I've been trying to keep it all to myself, hoping that it will all be just history.

But It just won't fade... Ever since from the start...

2009-08-28T15:22:00.002+08:00

Hey there!
Another week's over, another step closer to the EOYs...
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Aw man... i feel, very disturbed today, WOLE DAY in fact... has never been so quiet for so long, so inactive... laughed when i heard eng woon fooling around, lols =)
And thanks E.K for listening me out. =)
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Sch, was quite ok, if not for my mood it would have been much better.
3period of A-maths wasn't tiring at all today, quite ok, nothing much though.
after that was Bio, checked the test paper and then recess after that.
E-maths was boring... but chem was much better =), after that went home with Wenhao.
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Thanks Ms.tan MY for the tokens u gave us, we appreciate your teachings =)
smile always(:

2009-08-25T18:24:00.002+08:00

Yes, another day to post! actually, someone requested... nvm, an effort to keep this blog alive too.
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Woke up at 6+ in the morn, and was damn refreshed! =D
slept for more than 8hours ok!!! HAHA!
Reached sch and has Eng, was quite ok, managed to pay attention.
During chi lesson, i fell aslp!!! DARN!!!
But halfway through, i was awake again! man!!!
i think i missed out some information, but nvm -.-''
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Physics, tcher nvr come!!! SHIOK LIKE SIAO! no lah, still got work do >.<
V.hard seh!! nvr finish also! RAWR!!
Had Geog after that, woosh man!! geog did quite well!! =D
but got 1 paper is a disappointment, but nvm.=D
A maths was so-so nothing much also,
during CME laugh like siao with company, omg man! damn funny!
stomach pain.
watched the video of Pm Lee's National Rally speech after that.
Finally, i get to listen to it -.-'', last time miss liao,
now watch like feel contented. :)
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Oh ya, next time we should get a curtain for our class man!!! We are like so pathetic today lols. E-maths test after that, quite ok lah, if got no careless mistakes should be can de =)
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Chiong arh exams!!! All the way!!!
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I've yet to answer some unanswered questions of mine...
smile always(: - It has not fade, but i dun hate you for anything you've done.

2009-08-21T21:45:00.003+08:00

Will there be another you?

Aeons since i posted,
Tests come rolling in one by one,
i'm getting very tired....
Chiong arh! till the end! At least 3 A1s bah.
These few days, everyday is just so messed up.
idk why, but i feel very suffocated nowadays...
Anyways, tmr going to punggol for volleyball, hope all goes well =)
After that going out with cousins to watch movie, =)
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Sun:
Tuition in the morning till noon,
going out with some friends later after noon.
Chiong through hmwk
End of weekends
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just another month away... Jy all!

Just not convincing enough.

smile always(: - It may be over to you, but not me...

2009-08-10T20:27:00.002+08:00

Oh yes! i am soo back from the movie marathon! =D
bet ya it was fun! Love horror movie just so much! Thailand one's the best!
watched Shutter, hell ya it was great! Xenia, shiok mah? LOL!!!
Next time won't scare u liao lah, but must come back and watch again ho!
heh! :)
Paiseh arh Asyiqin, we took down all your snacks lols!
Watched Journey to centre of the Earth after that, interesting show, lols a bit comedy too.
Fun fun fun all the way, laugh laugh laugh, will go crazy LOLS!!!
But sad arh, very fast alr 5+ liao -.-'' some play piano and others watch tv programmes till 6+ before we set off for home.
=) left Asyiqin house and trained to cck to pei Zl buy things and then to night market buy snack home. Soon everyone part ways, home sweet home.
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Why do i feel that i'm lying to myself? Slap me awake someone, just do it.
smile always(:

2009-08-10T10:59:00.002+08:00

I would still wait if u would allow me to

Well, woke up just now, and did some hmwks,
not yet totally done, darn...
Going out today for movie marathon lols,
not really sure how it will be like, hope it all goes well =)
Yesterday whole day at home, damn bored! argh!
Morning went to prayers den afternoon stayed at home all the way...
boredom is killing me... -.-
i've got to improve my self entertainment skill =) lols...
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Hopefully i'm able to finish all my hmwks today =) tests are coming one by one, cope with stress and put aside all problems. cus i know where to draw my line.
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For days i've been trying to convince myself, but i feel pain more than relief.
smile always(: - If there was still a chance, can i have it?

Cause i know, that the impossible between us, is possible

2009-08-08T16:43:00.002+08:00

No Love

How long has it been my last post0.o? lols... almost a week i guess.
anw, i shall post about today=)
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Woke up early today, around 8, almost shouted a person's name when i woke up-.- man, i'm strong, i won't let it make me crazy =), well, anyway, badminton at cc today =) shiok, ate lunch with Hy,Xenia, Zl and talked all the way, funny=D
Actually zl suppose to come my house... got tuition >.< den too bad lor...
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now blogging, and maybe for another week, chionging studies, like nerd like that. i can rarely use the com now, but good also lah, maybe she'll just forget everything about what have happened, and that all the past just never even exists.
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For once i thought i could bring you through.
Not knowing my wrongs, i've failed you...
My feeling has never fade, not a single bit,
Obvious it is, that you is who i need
I came to know u didn't felt for me, i skipped a beat...
For few days, i've got wild thoughts, that we should have never meet...
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From then, i knew i'm unable to be loved, for now.
Since then, i became strong, i wont love, i found...
I've not given neither have i chosen to continue,
But i know, whenever u are there, your love, i'm always ready to imbue...

smile always(: - I shouldn't have love, i shouldn't have asked, i just shouldn't

2009-08-03T07:12:00.002+08:00

I'm desperate... in need of your presence.

Ok... it's currently 6.40am that i started to use com... very early right? but i just can't get to slp, woke up thrice at night... and now i can't slp>.<
Anyway, i shall post about yesterday before starting today's post.
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Woke up at around 10.30am, on com to go into msn for some kinda reason, i left it on throughout the day, but saddening... __ wasn't online today.
Didn't eat lunch, due to some reasons, where i'm being occupied with my own thoughts, and unknowingly i have to prepare for tuition.
Tuition was fun=) and learnt a new topic too!
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Sis came back at around 5 and we went to market buy stuffs for popo. Bought dinner too, super unhealthy>.< but who cares?XD eat to our fill can already.
chat with friends online, while in a very dead situation, lol... slept at 12.
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Woke up at 6.30am today... woken up by my sis, she thinks that i have to go sch early >.< but nvm, ate b.fast and laze around, posting now, to make up for yesterday's, i think i may not be able to use the com for a week or 2, relatives coming to stayover, so... the com will be for them than for me. maybe i'll still be able to use a bit, but maybe just to post =)
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I hope today will be better than yesterday, look on the bright side =D hah!
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For a moment i thought i could contact you,

and i've tried,

putting in a lot of effort in making the promise come true

i feel that i am willing to do whatever to get to you,

i remembered what i once said, i'll wait for you.

I'm perservering through this great ordeal,

with my great determination to you.

My feeling hasn't fade, neither has it grown weak.

Still as strong as a castle's gate, never it shall break.

smile always(: - I want only you, u know it, it's just our doubt that is the barrier...

2009-07-31T21:38:00.003+08:00

Ok, today i'm not going to post much, got some things i dun wanna elaborate, conflicts u know? at least let me vent it out first, sry blog >.< * Knnb, what is the F. problem with you!? Can't u see ppl today very unhappy u still want to give me attitude. TO think i have the patience to even bear with your attitude for so long, ask u to change u dun wanna listen, stop being an Oxy-Moron lah! U think u very big arh, want to compare with me a nort? Try me lah! see who die first, I''ll make sure not your balls fly your corpse cannot be found arh! Dun think u got attitude i dun have the manpower ok, I've got members willing to stand by me, and i trust them! if u want to purposely find trouble, LISTEN CAREFULLY! I'M THE FIRST U SHOULD COME TO!

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Ok, i'm cool, yes i am, and violence will not solve problems, i know... i'll be strategic in such situations, an act of impulse is what i would not retaliate from anger.=)

Today's lesson was quite ok, not that sleepy, miraculously, it's 3period A maths 1 period E maths, haha =) Bio wan interesting! well, it'll be much more interesting as the next chapter comes along=D YEA! Bio Long Live!!!
Tired today when i got home, Bored at home! ugh!... ate steamboat! =) nice nice, den tuitioned till 8.30 from 6.30, quite fun, learnt something new today again!! Woo!! =D Chatting with friends currently =)
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Tmr going punggol for match, hope we've improved, and hope nothing goes wrong tmr... dun wanna be reprimanded by coach again... argh, hate it when that happens, strive hard, Chiong arh ZSS V.ball!!
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I've got things to say to YOU...

I want you, i only want you,

the trust i have in you is far greater than any other

have trust in me and let's get together can we?

i want to be sms-ing you every morning, every night

I want you to be with me... Even though i'm waiting,

i want you to know, it's only you that i want,

YOU that i desire...

smile always(: - IWOLY... quit with the suspense and doubts, i want you

2009-07-29T23:25:00.000+08:00

Simple post for now, as it's very late now... i don't know why i'm just not aslp, but it seems likes i've got just too many questions in my head... i feel troubled... even my friends asked me that question, but i've got no answer...
this post is just all my questions. Ignore it all u want.
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I Ponder :
That...

Why isn't life simple enough so that complications do not occur?
Why is it that stress is so dangerous, but yet the one that gives us the drive?
Why does it seems that i feel that as though i've just lost my heart, when i've yet to give it to you?
Why do you have to feel so bewildered?
Why is it that i'm so devoted that i'm even able to give everything i can to the only one?
Why does it seems like i'm always playing the good guy when being a bad guy seems less troubled?
Why did you have to deny the fact that ... ...
Why is it that when i think things go my way, i just don't feel that it really did go my way...
Why do i always feel empty inside when people around me does give me love?

Why?

My questions unanswered, my mind bewildered...

Filled with doubt, even though everything seems so loud...

Unable to realise our love, your answer's undertermined...

Still unable to rise above, even with those words i mean...

Facade content i portray to all, in contrast, my heart's enduring...

My resilience i possess, unafraid to fall, even in doubt, i've always been waiting...

Despite each and every downfall, i've given myself a chance to prove...

In spite of the long run overall, awaiting your answer, is what i'd choose...

smile always(: - where's the trust, it seems to be lost, i want it back

2009-07-29T20:30:00.002+08:00

I am able to make you smile like u once did, am i?

Wohoo~ Wee Shan, your pic's my dart bullseye =D
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Hey hey!
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heh! sch was boring today, but got listen in class, so diligent 0.o... XD
Ended at 3 today... argh, just brings about all my urge to lament about it!
triple-science mah... what you expect... *sigh*~
Anyway! Met up with Kailin today to go lot 1, she pei me go sia!
so good, thanks arh, lols!! Saw Wee Shan A.K.A Gobi at lrt chatting with Kl.
In the end went to lot 1 together, lols! So long vnr see u lah! i am your SA leh! LOL!! XD
collected my jeans + bought a new mouse for my com! Yea! finally!
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Walked around and went into Kiddy Palace, So lame lah! the bottles
Next time buy for Gobi on her bdae, maybe she'll like it -.-'' the suck suck one, lols, Winnie the Pooh one oso!
After that went into Mac to slack, drank chocolate milk shake, dun think it's very nice, no diff from eating a chocolate bar, lols!
and Gobi thinks that it's not bad! lol...
Crapped about ppl and sch stuffs, suddenly talked about someone, ah-ha!
soon we all went off, walked home with Kl, while Gobi go home and Study! mwahaha!!
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Hey, um, i dunno what's with you today, and you do not wish to share the incident, i understand, just dun feel so unhappy about it, i'm here, and will always be, u know it. =)
smile always(: -How can i prove all i've felt for you?

2009-07-27T22:20:00.000+08:00

If u are willing to let me, i'm more than willing to...
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Ugh, this blogger is making me feel irritated... can't edit font/colours nothing! =.= nvm...
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Yep, hello~ all!
Sch today was quite cool, talk with xinyu like mad, and too bad Eunice missed all the fun, lols!
but i feel a bit guilty lar, see lah Xinyu!
Anyways, today geog test was quite smooth also=) cheers man!! haha!
overall school today was bursting with life!XD
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V.ball today! RAWR!! i think i was quite high oso, lols! duno why, but i think maybe because of what all the liveliness in class bah! =) haha
Training was fun! like finally fun! got the humour in it, Coach good mood! lols!
training till 7.40pm leh!! darn it! so late... still plan to stuffs, but i duno what, nvm.
btw, currently chatting with many many friends online, =)
aw man, Eunice.K gotten a fever! get well soon, dun miss the fun in class haha!
=D oh oh oh! to add on, my cousin has a fever too! OMFG! fever everywhere, what if i'm the next? lols...=.= touch wood
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Damn late now, =) gonna go to bed, slp early too everyone, goodnight

smile always(:-Honey to thee i shath provide, For thy am a sitting flower...
To sweeten thou heart, preventing its divide, for thee is all thy desire...

2009-07-26T22:36:00.002+08:00

Hold on to me and never let me go...

Hello!
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Short post for today, i just dun have the mood...Woke up at 8, slacked on the bed for an hour or so, thinking bout some stuffs.
ate shredded chicken porridge for breakfast today, studied Geog, and used com till now. Homework still not done -.-'' *sigh* moodless day today... Anyways, enjoy your weekend =/
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Went to Kailin hm, at around 7+ ate dinner there, damn ps lah! =.=
but eat till very bao bao =) thanks arh auntie. crapped at her house, lols, damn funny, siblings all very nice=D stay there till v.late arh, my ah ma call me liao, LOL!!! oh, and next time i go there 5 times a week, den mei have to wash bowls 5 imes a week! Woo!! LOL!!! XD plus she have to throw rubbish too! lols... was very entertained there, den head home at 9.30, =)
home, where i am to be once again!

smile always(: - You know, i'll love you, i've loved you all along...

From fact to fiction...

2009-07-26T17:20:00.003+08:00

Hold on to me and never let me go...

From fact to fiction...

2009-07-25T14:27:00.002+08:00

You make me smile. You make me dance like a fool.Forget how to breathe.Shine like gold, buzz like a bee...
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came back from badminton, it was exhausting man! but trust me, it's fun ok! =D Haha!! Xenia, must improve arh =X
zl and me play till so chiong>.< now i almost chuan bu guo qi liao =)
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tuition today changed to next week, cus no time, hmwk 1 whole stack >.< anyways, zl coming my house later, so shall end here =) enjoy your weekends!!
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smile always(: - IWWFYF i mean it.

2009-07-23T22:35:00.002+08:00

UKTIWOLY
Here's a short post for today, something wrong my blogger, can't post really that much, so ya =) anyways, had Bio SPA today, disected an animal's heart =D damn fun! But its very smelly.
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Learnt how to disect and identify the parts of the heart=)
Yea!! Curently melancholic i think, maybe i think too much already. =/
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smile always(:

2009-07-19T19:48:00.002+08:00

In the end, it's all your say

Yeh~hoo!!!!~~ and hell~ooo all! =)
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Firstly, a very good evening to all!! =) the end of another weekends ye. woke up early today, dunno why, watched tv and did some hmwk, after that continue to watch tv till 1, spongebob u know!? LOL!!! so lame~~ but it's nice =)
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Had tuition at 2.30 till 4.30, brain wrecking! argh! tests tests tests... have to pass them all, maybe not only pass, with good grades too=) jy man!
used the com till now, while pondering on some stuffs, hmm...
Anyway, CCAs are starting tmr! Shiok man, how long has it been since i've been in training, pretty long i'd say. hopefully i've not lost touch of the ball, gotta get better!
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Currently chatting with Kailin now, so de di siao lor she-.-'' aiyo eh, lols, but she's funny lar=) lols! say i bored liao, 1st one aim her, lols!! easy to di siao mah u. hahaXD.

Mm~hm~ i'll wait, even if it takes forever,

against all odds, even if i'm not the one, i'll wait,

wait, until u'd tell me that u LOVE ME.

and i'll tell u what, even if u tell me u hate me,

it'll not make me give up. never.

smile always(: -It's a promise, i'd keep.

Your heart will not decieve i swear, as long u're with me.

2009-07-18T09:45:00.002+08:00

How long will the time tick, before we are one?

A short post for now, else i won't be able to, busy like be during weekdays, homework rampage u know? -.- anyway, let's post about yesterday.
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Schooled till 12+ no chi remedial as it was canceled, but got wksht to do. headed for home... changed and to the gym! v.ball training is resuming, have to get ready. went with jerel and jia li and met roy at the gym, workout till 4+ so damn shiok when we came out! whoo~
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after that, we went to play basketball with teams, which i am quite familiar with too, so it was damn hiong, everyone chiong like crazy >.< heh. got some kinda small conflict in between, but their alright=)
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Somehow i got the favour of the caption =) the caption seems to like me being in his team, haha, but too bad, i gotta study, can't join their outside team, apologies>.< and oso i'm in volleyball... if i were to join outside team, volleyball teams is what i should be joining=) head home at around 7+ (end of day)
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Ok, so for today, nothing... totally nothing, just stay at home for 1 whole day finishing my hmwks and to use the com, no activities at all. as there's not enough time for myself, so, ya... it's best to stay at home.=) chatting with ppl now, =) so, shall end here
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Hadn't knew that we could have gone this far,

but what if there's more to it?

will we even get there?...

i wonder...

smile always(:- wished i had the nerve to ask u to stay... by me

2009-07-12T21:07:00.002+08:00

i'll do what i can to change the tides, i know, there's only 1 and only 1
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Well, woke up at 12 today >.< yesterday dunno sue com till 3am sia! OMG!! my eyes!! pain~~~ T.T lol! so, cooked lunch, macaroni. A bit no taste -.-'' need improve haha! nvm, still young, slowly learn =)
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Stayed at home all day... -.-'' nobody to jio oso, so, it was like luxury at home, slack here and there like nobody's business LOL!!! but not for long, guess what? i realised that my hmwk was not done yet! RAWR!!! chionged(a bit) till around evening, but still nto done, cus i was too engrossed in meddling with some com stuffs =)
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Bought dinner at around 7.30 ,late dinner though, but i'm used to it =), dessert was ice cream!! haha, see i told u it was like luxury =D. Den chatted with friends on msn =) till now, then post this, as requested to. =) ppl need go liao, short and sweet can ler =D haha! woo~~ off i go too!!
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Almost lover i'd be? guess again=) the tides will be in my control!! Just watch and learn!!! *wink*
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smile always(: - something, somehow i feel that someone, was always there for me, with a mutual feeling, i've suspected

2009-07-11T18:54:00.002+08:00

Hey... i'm feeling like i'm gonna make a wrong decision... Do your hear me?
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these few days, were like >.< time suddenly seem so much more precious than it used to be. Argh... won't this end? Fast fast! exams all come, fast fast, i want my poly/Jc years!! *pray*
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Ok! so, what i did yesterday? It was super lame man...-.-'' watched tv programmes on com with my Aunt, guess what! it's BOF!! -.-'' dammit.. 3hours>.< i won't watch it again, eye pain. See liao oso dunno what it's about lol. After that eat a super nice dinner! Special, once in a blue moon dishes from my Aunt, LOL eat till super bao bao! Supper still have! I think i go into cca i'll not be able to jump liao,LOL!!! darn heavy!
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Woke up at 11+ today morn, ate Roti Prata... And it's not very nice la! Wa lao! waste my $$ lor-.-'' next time i go buy other roti pratas LOL!!! After that watched tv, and time flew like so fast! soon going to rch 2 liao -.-'' so waste time >.<... get ready for tuition, do maths practice till 5, Guess what, fully covered up a topic during today's tuition, Rock on man!! I think i'm starting to like maths 0.o... Well, from the words of nerdsXD " To ace the subject, u've got to love it" haha!! no offence XD
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Studying almost everytime... gotta prepare for chi test next week. Draw out your pens and paper, and equip yourselves with dictionaries!! and get Ready for the paper!! Woo!! Have to pass chi this time -.-, previously got D7... pro rite? i know i know, no need say lmao.
Ok! gotta continue my life journey to success now! let's all be enlightened with papers of knowledge!~ Jy ppl!!!
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smile always(: - Almost lover i'd be

2009-07-08T22:40:00.002+08:00

I've got questions for you, you've got answers, i can walk these circles all night long

Just a random post to update =) enjoy your schooling days.
Study hard, i may not be posting the rest of the following days, too busy>.<
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Stress!!!! ARgh!!! chiong arh!! E-O-Y man!!! i'm choinging for you!!! I'm gonna Defeat AMaths!! RAWR!!
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I've got to get some slp now, tidious day tmr =) good night!
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David Cook Straight Ahead

I've got questions for you

you've got answers,

untrueI can walk these circles all night long

Take a pill to sleep off Everything you can think of

Walking all these circles to a song

Could you play me something new?

So take a minute just to breathe

And think of everything you wanted

And what you got instead

Is it a labor just to see?

Around the left, the right, over my head

Just straight ahead

Find a new way to feel right

Between this and a fist fight

I can read the circles around your eyes

This is life, this is no rhyme

Find a beat, find the right time

To organize these circles to a song

Could you play me something new?

So take a minute just to breathe

And think of everything you wanted

And what you got instead

Is it a labor just to see?

Around the left, the right, over my head

Just straight ahead, yeah

So take a minute just to breathe

And think of everything you wanted

And what you got instead

So take a minute just to breathe

And think of everything you wanted

And what you got instead(what you got instead)

Is it a labor just to see?

Around the left, the right, over my head

Just straight ahead, yeah

smile always(: - Find a beat, find the right time... To organize these circles